And let me te you it is HELL. Like literally, for the past month I have dealt with a migraine almost every other day, extreme abdominal pain, side pain, and now, pelvic pain. AND I AM SO DAMN SICK OF IT!!!
I'm sick of being so dizzy I feel like I could pass out. I am sick of being so sick to my stomach that I feel like any sudden movements will result in the ejection of its contents. I'm sick of having to struggle through shift after shift and having my performance at work being slowly but surely decreasing because I am in so much pain. And above all else I am so fucking sick to death of feeling like curling into a ball and just disappearing because I hurt so bad!!!!
I am not one of those people that handles being sick and dependent on others very well. It was a pain in the ass after the car accident. And this really isn't much different.
Like right now, I feel so sick to my stomach. AUGH JUST MAKE IT STOP!!!! But there is a part of me that is so worried- no, TERRIFIED- of what the doctor is going to find. I am so scared that something really bad is wrong with me. And that just makes it all worse.
I'm sorry for complaining but I am just fed up with my body and really needed to get this out of my system. In any case prom is next weekend and I am BEYOND excited. :D AND PATRICK TURNS 11 ON MONDAY HES NOT A BABY ANYMORE WAAAAAHHHHHH!!!!!
I'm going to shut up now and let you return to your life. I promise to make a better one either tomorrow or Saturday! :)
Sincerely,
-Katie
