Well it's been a hot minute.
Hi guys. Life kind of turned upside down for a while and it was really good that I took a break from posting on here. Now I feel like I can (maybe!) be the person, blogger, and writer this place deserves. Maybe. If people can just get over themselves and their prejudices. But we all know how that usually ends up....
Anyways I'm not here to whine and bitch about personal viewpoints on certain issues. I know that if you are set in your ways then there is not much I can do to change your mind. I can, however, give you an incredible challenge in what you assume a person to be, and how I am. Doesn't add up, does it? Stereotypes are incredibly inaccurate, in case you didn't know.
.....See, this is what fucking insomnia does. It turns me into a half-advocate with a huge mouth and nothing to back it up with. This also wasn't meant to be a rant about me and my life and the choices I make. This was meant to be me updating you on my life and how nutzy-coo-coo it's been. Both good, bad, and in-between.
First off, I passed both of my summer classes with an A and a B. I got the B in the math class I retook. Um, yeah, crazy. Also, just school in general has happened. Like oh my God, I am there four days a week, and how I get anything done on top of that and work is beyond me. I seriously am amazed at how much I am able to do and my ability to keep my schedule straight.
And I also got a half-promotion at work. I can't give you my exact details, but basically I'm in between sales-associate and manager. If that makes any sense. So now I work five days a week, make slightly more solely on hours, and I am due for a raise soon. Also I've managed to stay at this job for over a year, despite half of the stores in the mall closing down. I'm waiting for the day I go in and my boss tells me the entire mall is shutting down and I need to find a new job. Um, no. I LIKE where I am. There's very little politics, it's so slow I can usually clean and task to my hearts content, and above all, the hardest part of my job is the language barrier. Like seriously, that's the hardest part. Maybe that comes with my four years of experience in customer service and three in retail. But I just.... I'm really happy with where I'm at in my job right now.
Oh, yeah, and I'm in a serious relationship. It's been going on for almost a year now. The other person is amazing. And we pretty much tear every expectation and assumption to shreds. We are our own kind of wonderful and we make it work for US, not for anyone else. My mom isn't really on board with my relationship. I hate to say this, but I could care less. This person makes me VERY happy and I honestly can't picture my life without them.
But with every bit of good comes some bad. I still can't make phone calls, I still can't drive, I still have about no friends (sort of), and ehm, well, insomnia man. It's tearing up my LIFE. Like seriously, it's currently one in the morning and I'm barely tired. And this is the third time in two weeks this has happened. The second time this week. I think part of this is just general anxiety, and then part of it is my OCD. And I do not mean that in the microagression stereotype way. I mean this in the clinical, oh my God if the dishes are not in the cabinet a certain way I will literally have a panic attack. I've also got a serious problem with germs. Like more than a normal person. Like I use hand sanitizer RELIGIOUSLY, and I can't use public sinks because I'm scared of all the germs. I won't use my hands or chew my nails if I don't feel like they're clean or if they've touched certain things. And don't even get me STARTED on food. Good God I could write a book about my issues with food. Heh, maybe that's a topic to be explored here?
Anyways, that's kind of my life in a nutshell. Also I forgot my phone at work tonight and that's stressing me out too. I'm gonna go try and sleep, but let me know if you guys care to see me post anymore on here, okay?
And in case you didn't hear it today: I love you and you are totally good enough.
Sincerely,
-Katie
Hi guys. Life kind of turned upside down for a while and it was really good that I took a break from posting on here. Now I feel like I can (maybe!) be the person, blogger, and writer this place deserves. Maybe. If people can just get over themselves and their prejudices. But we all know how that usually ends up....
Anyways I'm not here to whine and bitch about personal viewpoints on certain issues. I know that if you are set in your ways then there is not much I can do to change your mind. I can, however, give you an incredible challenge in what you assume a person to be, and how I am. Doesn't add up, does it? Stereotypes are incredibly inaccurate, in case you didn't know.
.....See, this is what fucking insomnia does. It turns me into a half-advocate with a huge mouth and nothing to back it up with. This also wasn't meant to be a rant about me and my life and the choices I make. This was meant to be me updating you on my life and how nutzy-coo-coo it's been. Both good, bad, and in-between.
First off, I passed both of my summer classes with an A and a B. I got the B in the math class I retook. Um, yeah, crazy. Also, just school in general has happened. Like oh my God, I am there four days a week, and how I get anything done on top of that and work is beyond me. I seriously am amazed at how much I am able to do and my ability to keep my schedule straight.
And I also got a half-promotion at work. I can't give you my exact details, but basically I'm in between sales-associate and manager. If that makes any sense. So now I work five days a week, make slightly more solely on hours, and I am due for a raise soon. Also I've managed to stay at this job for over a year, despite half of the stores in the mall closing down. I'm waiting for the day I go in and my boss tells me the entire mall is shutting down and I need to find a new job. Um, no. I LIKE where I am. There's very little politics, it's so slow I can usually clean and task to my hearts content, and above all, the hardest part of my job is the language barrier. Like seriously, that's the hardest part. Maybe that comes with my four years of experience in customer service and three in retail. But I just.... I'm really happy with where I'm at in my job right now.
Oh, yeah, and I'm in a serious relationship. It's been going on for almost a year now. The other person is amazing. And we pretty much tear every expectation and assumption to shreds. We are our own kind of wonderful and we make it work for US, not for anyone else. My mom isn't really on board with my relationship. I hate to say this, but I could care less. This person makes me VERY happy and I honestly can't picture my life without them.
But with every bit of good comes some bad. I still can't make phone calls, I still can't drive, I still have about no friends (sort of), and ehm, well, insomnia man. It's tearing up my LIFE. Like seriously, it's currently one in the morning and I'm barely tired. And this is the third time in two weeks this has happened. The second time this week. I think part of this is just general anxiety, and then part of it is my OCD. And I do not mean that in the microagression stereotype way. I mean this in the clinical, oh my God if the dishes are not in the cabinet a certain way I will literally have a panic attack. I've also got a serious problem with germs. Like more than a normal person. Like I use hand sanitizer RELIGIOUSLY, and I can't use public sinks because I'm scared of all the germs. I won't use my hands or chew my nails if I don't feel like they're clean or if they've touched certain things. And don't even get me STARTED on food. Good God I could write a book about my issues with food. Heh, maybe that's a topic to be explored here?
Anyways, that's kind of my life in a nutshell. Also I forgot my phone at work tonight and that's stressing me out too. I'm gonna go try and sleep, but let me know if you guys care to see me post anymore on here, okay?
And in case you didn't hear it today: I love you and you are totally good enough.
Sincerely,
-Katie
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