MUST PLAY THIS SONG FIRST WHILE YOU READ.
I've needed to post this for a while.
On my 20th birthday, I found out my friend died in his home. The last time I had talked to him, he had told me he took a lethal amount of insulin. Unfortunately, I didn't get this information until AFTER I saw the facebook post that he had gone.
Why am I telling you this? Because I recently got this song stuck in my head. And honestly it's one of the few pop songs that I can actually stand. If you really take a minute and listen to the lyrics, the artist is actually begging people not to start using drugs. This is something that NEEDS to be said, and I salute the person who is brave enough to say it. So much of the crap that passes for music anymore is about getting drunk, getting high, or getting laid. I am NOT about that life. I've just kind of had this stuck in my head.
It's been six months since he died. The thing is, I try and live my life for him. I try not to live in fear (and fail spectacularly), and honestly? I didn't really start exploring myself and who I truly am until after he left. I took a stance after that. I want to make him proud. I want to make my girlfriend proud. And I hope I'm doing that.
In other news, School is swallowing me whole, I made a few new friends yesterday (Which is a HUGE deal, because I haven't been able to people lately), and I think.... maybe things are turning around for me? I'm trying. Also if you really want to know what's going on in my life, follow me on tumblr. I am on pretty close to a daily basis. I don't mean to neglect this place. But it's just kind of been put on the back burner for a while. I'm still working on balancing everything in my life. I'm getting there. It's just gonna take practice.
Sincerely,
-Katie
I've needed to post this for a while.
On my 20th birthday, I found out my friend died in his home. The last time I had talked to him, he had told me he took a lethal amount of insulin. Unfortunately, I didn't get this information until AFTER I saw the facebook post that he had gone.
Why am I telling you this? Because I recently got this song stuck in my head. And honestly it's one of the few pop songs that I can actually stand. If you really take a minute and listen to the lyrics, the artist is actually begging people not to start using drugs. This is something that NEEDS to be said, and I salute the person who is brave enough to say it. So much of the crap that passes for music anymore is about getting drunk, getting high, or getting laid. I am NOT about that life. I've just kind of had this stuck in my head.
It's been six months since he died. The thing is, I try and live my life for him. I try not to live in fear (and fail spectacularly), and honestly? I didn't really start exploring myself and who I truly am until after he left. I took a stance after that. I want to make him proud. I want to make my girlfriend proud. And I hope I'm doing that.
In other news, School is swallowing me whole, I made a few new friends yesterday (Which is a HUGE deal, because I haven't been able to people lately), and I think.... maybe things are turning around for me? I'm trying. Also if you really want to know what's going on in my life, follow me on tumblr. I am on pretty close to a daily basis. I don't mean to neglect this place. But it's just kind of been put on the back burner for a while. I'm still working on balancing everything in my life. I'm getting there. It's just gonna take practice.
Sincerely,
-Katie
