Things I have learned in the past 24 hours...

I learned a LOOOOT of things in the past 24 hours.

Let's review them all. IN LIST-FLASHBACK FORM!!!!!! :D:D:D:D

1: I LOVE CAVATAPPI PASTA!!!!!!!!!! Enough said.

2: I MUST LEARN HOW TO MAKE A MAC-N-CHEESE PIZZA. We went to Cici's pizza yesterday, and I tried mac-n-cheese pizza. IT WAS THE BEST THING MY MOUTH HAS EVER EXPERIENCED!!!!!!!! It was all cheesy and gooey and it had pasta on it and I just made myself extremely hungry. :P

3: I am about one more misplacement of my phone from having my parents taking it from me. Let's flashback: I was at the pizza place yesterday and we were leaving, but I left my phone on the table. Well, some idiot hispanics took it and tried to steal it. But A: it had a passcode on it and it was locked, and B: I had installed "Where's my iPhone?" on my phone, which would have let me locate it from this computer I am on. EVERYONE GO DOWNLOAD THAT APP BECAUSE IT IS AMAZING AND WILL HELP IF YOU EVER LOSE YOUR IPHONE!!!!!!!!!!! But anyways, my mom kept calling it, and finally some dude picked up, and my mom was like, "She'll come in the restaurant to get it." And the dude was already super far away. So we went to home depot, and they AGAIN tried to ditch me, but we found them and they gave it back to me. And then the B*tch of a mom, as we turned to leave, muttered under her breath, "What, no reward??" Um, no offense, but those parents are psychos. The girls were sweet and wanted to give it back to me, but those parents are crazy.

4: My brother playing soccer is the best thing that could have ever happened to him. He has become so much more social because of it. :') Just makes me so proud....

And that is all! EVERYBODY HAS A BOWL CUT AND YOU LOOK- Sorry, quoting this video: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fLuXeRe6lWE&feature=g-user-u  X3

-Katie

I AM A HUNGRY HAPPY PART-TIME-PLATYPUS!!!!!!!!! :D:D:D

Like the title says!!!!!!!!

I HAVE 22 FREAKIN PAGEVIEWS AND IT ISN'T EVEN 10 AM WHERE I'M AT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D THAT IS FREAKIN AMAZING YOU GUYS!!!!!!!!!

I never once thought that when I started this blog 22 PEOPLE would look at it IN ONE DAY!!!!!!!!! :D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D Let alone that it would reach 1000 pageviews all-time. :D:D:D:D:D:D I know that I've had my ups and downs, but to those who have stuck around through them thank you. YOU are the people who mean the world to me. All of y'all are, but those who have stayed by my side and read this blog since the day it started..... Y'all are kind of amazing.

IN OTHER NEWS: I am SOOOOOOOOOOOOO hungry!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :P My dad is gonna take me to starbucks later. Oh, I didn't tell you? IT IS 30-SOMETHING DEGREES HERE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :O Yeah, I'm cold. At least my room is heated. Remember the freak blizzard in Dallas last year? Well, last time I was in a converted garage, and it wasn't insulated properly, so My room was literally as cold inside as it was outside. So therefore I had to sleep in my little brother's room. -.- At least until we got the space heater.....

FOOD TIME BYE!!!!!!!!!

AND THANKS AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!! :D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D

-Katie

REEEEED AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!! :D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D

I GOT THE NEW TAYLOR SWIFT CD!!!!!!!! :D:D:D:D:D

OMG I am SOOOOOOOOOO excited!!!! Now I have new music that i can listen to in November!! :D Speaking of which, I am nowhere NEAR ready for Novelling OR Halloween. I'm trying to fix that, but I am kind of stuck baby-sitting right now, so I can't exactly do much....

Oh well. THIS SONG IS AMAZING!!!!!!!!! :D
-Katie

OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOH MYYYYYYYYYYY GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

OMFG GUYS!!!!!!!!!!!

THIS BLOG HAS REACHED OVER 1000 VIEWS SINCE IT STARTED!!!!!!!!!!! :D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D I cannot even BEGIN to tell y'all how much that means!!!!!!!!! And it isn't just USA pageviews either! I have views from Russia, Germany, and NIGERIA!!!!!!!!!! :D:D:D:D:D:D:D

This seriously means so much!!!!!!! So we are going to have a virtual cupcake party tomorrow!!!! :D I will make cupcakes and post pictures!!! Is that as lame as it sounds? :/ Well, how do y'all wanna celebrate? LEAVE COMMENTS AND I WILL PICK THE BEST OR ALL OF THEM DEPENDING ON HOW MANY I GET!!!!!!!!! :D

In other news, I am not allowed to talk about work any more on here. :( Oh well. I am going out with the family later to get some fro-yo to celebrate!!! :D

Speaking of which, I GTG.

BUY GUISE AND THANKS A BUNCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D

-Katie 

Where oh where has the blogger gone? :P

I'M WRITE HERE!!! xD Get it???

:P I know that was a horrible joke. And I AM DEEPLY SORRY FOR MY LACK OF POSTS LATELY!!!! But this is good prep for y'all for NaNoWriMo. Oh, I never told y'all? I'm going to write a novel in a month!!! :D This is my first year, and I am REALLY excited! 

IN OTHER NEWS: My Blessing had surgery yesterday and it went really really well. It was on his teeth and they were able to save the majority of them.the majority meaning he only lost THREE!!!! :'D He is back home now and being his usual self.

So yeah, there's one reason why I haven't been posting. The OTHER reason is I have..............really weird people looking at my blog. I have no idea WHY but they BETTER GET OUT OF HERE!!!!!! And the sad part is that THAT IS WHERE MOST OF MY VIEWS ARE COMING FROM!!!! :'( Am I doing something wrong here?????

Sigh. Oh well. Just thought I'd fill y'all in real quick. Now back to NaNo prepping....

-Katie

Awesome homecoming!

Okay I am SOOO hot right now. :P

So yeah, I'm waiting for my mom to pick me up. But I had SOO much fun! :) even with the whole awkward-ex-best-frenemie situation....

Well, we danced. Boys danced with us, we danced by ourselves, we danced with each other.... It was pretty epic. :)

BUT I AM GOING TO PAY DEARLY FOR THIS TOMORROW AT WORK. -.-

Oh well, it was worth it. :) oh, my dress? You'll see that soon enough. ;D

-Katie

WHY DOES MY LEG HURT SO MUCH???????????

SERIOUSLY!!!!!!!!!!!

This is not going to go over well with DANCING tomorrow!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! -__________________- I DON'T LIKE THIS PAIN IN MY LEG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ugh. In other news, I left my nametag at work, I WANT TO GO SHOPPING, and I think I made my friend mad by panicking..... I'm such a loser.

I ALWAYS SAY THE WRONG THING AT THE WRONG TIME!!!!!!!!!!! I am TRYING to adopt Taylor Swift's ideas. I try to be fearless and jump even when I'm scared, I try to speak now, BUT I FAIL EPICALLY AND I GET VERY MAD AT MYSELF WHEN I DO. -.- But yet I hate the thought of becoming the timid, shy, inside herself person I was before again. So.....

Yeah. This blog sucks, and I apologize for that.

-Katie

iTunes is so stupid sometimes.

It really is.

IN OTHER NEWS: I GOT 29 PAGEVIEWS YESTERDAY AND HAVE 15 TODAY!!!!!!!! :D:D:D:D But I am not sure how I feel about where they're coming from.... :/ Oh well. At least people are reading this thing. :D

I just wish I had more TEENAGE readers. Y'all wouldn't mind sharing this with your young friends, would you? 

Sigh. The whole reason I started this blog was to apply for a scholarship for college in a few years. I wanted to write about what REALLY goes on when a family has an autistic child. But..... most of it is too violent and/or personal to write in here, so it's become my diary, and y'all are sort of my confidants. You've listened when no one else has. You've stood by me when no one else would. You've kept me going. This blog has saved my life twice. And I can't tell you how much it means to have people reading it. :')

Okay enough emotional stuff. I HAVE SOME WEIRDO-STALKER-PERSON CREEPING ON MY TWITTER. O_O I blocked him though, but it was creepy. 

WHY ARE MY GLASSES SMUDGY!?!?!?! -_______- Im'a go fix that, so....

buy guise! :D
-Katie

Why does my foot hurt???

LIKE SERIOUSLY!!!!!!!!!!

I have a massive Cut-blister thing on one foot, my other foot hurts for no good reason, and I am about you be on them both for at lease six hours. -___-

Well, at least I have had caffeine and oatmeal....

Bleh.

-Katie

Why does my foot hurt???

LIKE SERIOUSLY!!!!!!!!!!

I have a massive Cut-blister-thing on one foot, my other foot hurts for no good reason, and I am about you be on them both for at lease six hours. -___-

Well, at least I have had caffeine and oatmeal....

Bleh.

-Katie

Blah.

I have to be at work in five minutes.

I wish I had something happy to write about but I don't really. My brother was a pain last night, I am on the verge of a relapse home is so stressful, and work isn't that great either, seeing as I work all mornings this week....

That killed two minutes. OH!!!! I found a dress for homecoming!!!!!! :D I'll share pictures later. It is SOOO beautimus!! :P

I should probably get going...

BAI GUISE!!!! :)
-Katie

F--- Society.

Like seriously.

I went to a mall yesterday to look for a homecoming dress, and it was like, full of stores for people with money, AND NOTHING EITHER APPEALED TO ME OR FIT. -___________- All the dresses were for the tall blonde b*tch, not the sweet, curvy brunette that I am.

I FREAKIN HATE THAT SOCIETY ONLY THINKS THE TALL BLONDE B*TCH IS THE ONLY ONE THAT CAN BE BEAUTIFUL!!!!!! :( Like seriously, Curvy girls like to feel pretty and go to dances and wear nice stuff too!!!!!!! >:( It just pisses me off. So we are going to try again today before I have to go to work at the mall closer to my house, and maybe Kohl's too. If we can figure out the dress situation for homecoming, I'm gonna be more willing to go. If not..... I don't think I'll go.

And I may not even have the day off either. I went to work yesterday to try and secure that, but the person in charge of making the schedule had already done it, so I just have to pray I don't work Saturday.

IN MORE HAPPY NEWS: Big Time Rush was HILARIOUS last night! :D Even though I just watched it this morning, I still loved it. AND OMG WHAT WAS KENDALL THINKING WHEN HE CALLED JO LUCY?????? :O Sooo.....

BAI GUISE! :D
-Katie

#WeLoveYouCarlos !!!!!

Yep, this is a Rusher kind of post.

HATERS, KNOW THAT I WILL BLOCK AND REPORT YOUR HAPPY ASS IF YOU MAKE ME MAD, OKAY???'

Okay, so last night, Carlos was on twitter, tweeted his opinion, AND EVERYONE ATTACKED HIM WITH HATE. -_______________________________- I WILL NOT TAKE THIS SITTING DOWN, ESPECIALLY SINCE HE IS TALKING ABOUT A TWITTER AND INSTAGRAM BREAK. We ALL KNOW that boy is addicted to instagram, so he must really be upset if he is talking about giving that up for a while.

SO HERE IS THE PLAN WE HAVE COME UP WITH ON TWITTER: First off, GET YO'SELF A TWITTER IF YOU DON'T ALREADY HAVE ONE AND THEN FOLLOW CARLOS. Second, help us trend #WeLoveYouCarlos BUT PLEASE BE GENUINE WITH IT OKAY????? Second, "spam" his account with anything and everything positive, okay? :) You will make my day if you do!!!! Oh, and if you get hate for it, LET ME KNOW AND I WILL HAPPILY BACK YOU UP AND REPORT THEIR HAPPY BUTTS. 

IN OTHER NEWS: I AM GOING DRESS SHOPPING TODAY!!!!!!! :D Pictures to come!! So......

BAI GUISE AND THANKS A BUNDLE!!!!!!! :D:D:D

-Katie

REEEEEEED! :D

Yes, I just got the new Taylor Swift song off of iTunes. :D

Losing was blue! Missin him was dark Gray! Loving him was RED! Yeah, I shouldn't be doing that.... Oh well! :D

I work tomorrow. -.- I am still so nervous. But I kind of have a plan. But I NEED MY BODY TO COOPERATE!!!! DO YOU HEAR THAT BODY??!?!?! Oh my god I am losing my mind. O.O Yep, this is Joe. Or is it Jake? Hmm....

Reeeeeeeeed! :D This song is soooo a description of my relationship with a certain band loser who CHOSE A BLONDE B**** OVER ME!!!!!!!!!!! -_________________- Oh well, I have..... boys who want to spend time with me now. :D

Speaking of which, I AM GOING DRESS SHOPPING ON FRIDAY FOR HOMECOMING!!!!!! :D:D:D:D I will post pictures on my twitter asking what everyone thinks. Soo make sure you're following me!  @Cupcakerusher17 Ok? :)

And.... as for my depression, my friend really really cares about me. He cared enough to yell via email at me and ask my mom for help. I've never had someone except my ex-BFF. So.... thank you unnamed friend. :)

And this post is so helter-skelter that I can barely tag it. DANCE PARTY TIME! :D

-Katie

bleh.

Yesterday could have been a lot better.

But then again I guess it could have been a lot worse too. :/ Oh well. There's nothing I can do except move on really......

In other news, I talked to an old friend last night. :) She really listened and helped. And then she told me about her escapades with a guy..... It was bizarre. :P And my other friend STILL WON'T EMAIL ME!!!!!!!!!!!! :( I'm getting worried. But then again he's homeschooled too, so he's probably doing school. And I'm probably being over sensitive. Sigh.

This show is lame, my jeans need washed, and I have math I need to do, so....

BAI GUISE!!!! :D

-Katie

No relapse. :) BUT THIS POST WILL STILL BE TRIGGERING

Seriously, SESAME STREET IS SO LAME ANYMORE.

Anyways, I didn't relapse last night. I almost did, but instead I wrote "Love is Louder" on my arm. Those three words mean so much to me. :')

So yeah, I have Girl Scouts today. I am both excited and nervous. Again, the whole ex-best-friend issue. Sigh. What am I going to do about that mess? I want my knife just thinking about that whole mess. but somehow I'll get through it. I'm too stubborn not to try. But.... I just....

JKLDASfjK;LDSGJKLFGJKDFL;G Someone help me.

-Katie

frustration. THIS POST IS TRIGGERING.

I just want to cut.

SO. FUCKING. BAD. No one sees me here. No one wants me. no one listens. all I am is a waste of space. no one cares. No one at all. All I do is alienate people I love and care about. No one loves me. Why do I even bother living on this fucking planet?

Oh yeah, for all the people who "care." I bet I can find my nametag...... Am I really writing this? Am I really thinking these thoughts? Why do I even care? I shouldn't care but I do. Fuck it all.

I'm probably gonna relapse today, so please don't hate me for it. But I doubt anyone is even reading this sentence....

fuck life.
-Katie

Lawl!!!!

I am watching "Married to Jonas" and it is HILARIOUS!!!! xD

Kevin decided to take the Delesea's camping. Mrs. Delesea is NOT happy. :P I haven't been hardcore camping, but it can't be as bad as they're making it out to be. But then again maybe it is. Idk.

IN OTHER NEWS: I am still very writer's blocked. -_____________________- I DO NOT LIKE IT SAM I AM!!!!!!!!!!! WON'T YOU PLEASE UNBLOCK MY CREATIVITY??????? Wait, WHY did I just say that???? o_O

This is what happens when I get up before eight in the morning.....

-Katie

Emotions! :O TRIGGER WARNING.

Ugh, someone is torturing our poor bird.

IE, my blessing. -_________________- Why does this not surprise me? Anyways, yesterday was...... emotional to say the least. I really put myself out there, TRIED to save someone, and.... I think I actually made a new friend. :) AND I got covergirl put back on my arm! :D

Yeah, I don't like looking at my scars, so I usually put something meaningful over them. It helps in two ways. ONE: It helps remind me to stay strong. TWO: I always feel that if I hurt myself on that arm and destroy those words that I am hurting the person who said them. :) And I am TWO WEEKS STRONG BABY! :D

This really isn't helping with the whole "remove self harm from my blog so my best friend will be my friend again." But you know what? Maybe........ Maybe censorship isn't worth it. That's what PUT ME in the position I was in, because I was forced to keep it all inside until it just got to a self-destructive point. So maybe it isn't worth it. :/ I always think my best when talking to y'all.

So yeah, this was a deep post. Not sure how I feel about it, but I'll wait and see what the response is.

BAI GUISE! :D

-Katie

PS: WATCH CUPCAKE WARS TONIGHT ESPECIALLY IF YOUS IS A RUSHER! :D:D:D:D:D

I'm okay!

Sort of. :P

Long story short I pulled a muscle doing ab work in dance class on Wednesday. -________- IT HURTS SO FREAKIN MUCH!!!!!!!!!! But other than that (And certain parts of my body spasming....) I WILL SURVIVE! I WILL SURVIVE! OH AS LONG AS I KNOW HOW TO LOVE I KNOW I'LL STAY- Oh, wrong place. xD

IN OTHER NEWS: I am maybe asking a guy to homecoming tomorrow. 8O Yeah. I am beyond nervous right now. And I am also really sleepy, so goodnight! :)

-Katie

100 posts and counting! :)

Yes, I'm okay.

Turns out there was nothing wrong that the doctor's could find. -____________- But I hurt, and I still can't hardly........... nevermind.

In other news, THIS IS MY 100TH PUBLISHED POST! :D:D:D:D:D TWO major milestones for this blog in ONE WEEK! :O I must be doing something really write here. Get it? ;P

Well, I guess that's it for right now. Until next time!

-Katie

ugh.

It's 5:07 AM.

Why am I up at five in the morning? I'm scared. why am I scared? Because I have to go to the ER after my brother goes to school. Why do I have to go to the ER? .................To be perfectly blunt, I can't frickin pee. Why?

Who the hell knows?!?!?! All I know is I'm scared out of my mind. But..... all I can do is hope for the best. IN OTHER NEWS: I have the biggest craving for eggs. O.o No joke. Eggs, Bacon, and a cinnamon roll with bacon on the side. Maybe I can convince my mom to go by work on the way to the ER? It is kinda on the way......

Idk. Also, this is post 98 or 99!!!! :O So first I reach eight hundred views and then I am almost at 100 published posts??????? :D:D:D:D:D:D:D Well, THAT will certainly be amazing. Well, I guess I should probably write out my fears, but I'm not about to burden y'all with them. Y'all are too beautiful to burden with them. I just.... Idk. I also have a craving for hashbowns. O.O

I think I needs some IHOP......

-Katie

OMGOMGOMGOMGOMFG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D:D:D:D:D:D

NO FUCKING WAY!!!!!

WE REACHED EIGHT HUNDRED VIEWS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :'D I CANNOT thank all of y'all enough for this!!!! We ARE going to have a party. Lucky for you I have cake class tomorrow, so we will have cake! :D Well, virtual cake. :P

Seriously, y'all are the best. Maybe you just started reading or you've been here from the start. I love y'all no matter what! :D But we're not gonna stop here! Leave suggestions in the comments for what I should write about in the future! Tell me what you want and I'll do my best to write about all of them! :D Next goal is 1,000! SPREAD THE WORD!

I love you! :*

-Katie

NO WAY!!!!

796 FREAKIN PAGEVIEWS???????????????????

Y'all are seriously the best readers. I was feeling a little overwhelmed at everything I am about to talk about, but now..... I FEELS GOOD!!!!!!!!!!!!! :') Y'all seriously rock. When we get to 800 we are going to have a party of somesort, okay? Okay! :D

And now on to everything that is overwhelming me. Let's go into list format, shall we?

1: I think my mom may have made it kind of obvious to this other kid at work that I'm a cutter. Cuz like, Sunday I left my nametag where the servers pull everything together because I was feeling really really really stressed out. I did that so I DIDN'T cut, but somehow someone found it and it got put in the office. And then my mom had to ask my manager for it and then they kind of made a fuss about it a little bit and the other person was standing there and now I think he might know. :s THAT is both embarrassing and awkward at the same time.

2: Certain people seem to think that if I get the least bit stressed I will cut, which is COMPLETELY FALSE. I only feel the need to cut when I am EXTREMELY stressed out. Like when I work Sunday mornings or any morning with a certain manager. Or when there is major fighting going on. But NOT by having an arguement with my brother about his music!!!!! Sorry, that was just really annoying me.

3: I am going to try and convince my parents that I need my own apartment today. It won't be forever, and it will be more of a month to month thing. But...... After the uproar that happened last night....... Let's just say I was lucky I couldn't find anything sharp enough. Until my Blessing is more stable and there are less fights like the one last night..... I just think it's healthier for me if I have my own place so I can stay clean. I don't care if it's a rat hole at this point..... I just want to be free.

Yeah, that about sums it up. and now, since those three things are depressing sort of, let's trade off with three good things! :D

1: JENNETTE MCCURDY IS STILL FOLLOWING ME ON TWITTER!!!!!!!!!!!! :D:D:D:D:D:D:D And speaking of twitter, I AM TWO FOLLOWERS AWAY FROM 100. :O @Cupcakerusher16

2: I had an AWESOME birthday! :D I had a mini party at writer's group, I got my hair done, my eyebrows are now in line, AND I got HOMEMADE and HEALTHY Mac and cheese AND I got to watch BIG TIME RUSH!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D

3: I HAVE TURNED MY LITTLEST BROTHER INTO A RUSHER!!!!!!!!!!! :'D I am so proud of myself.

And that's all I got for today! Sorry this post is so long, just needed to vent.

Love y'all!

-Katie