HAPPY TURKEY DAY!!! :D

Soo....

To anyone not from America reading this: TODAY IS THANKSGIVNG! :D That means today is the day we give thanks for everything and remember when the first pilgrims came here and settled. And I really don't feel like giving a history lesson, so just Google thanksgiving okay?

NOW FOR THE EPIC FANGIRL PART OF THIS BLOG: If you are a Rusher, and you have a twitter (And if you get on often enough), THEN YOU KNOW YESTERDAY WAS THE ONE-YEAR-ANNIVERSARY OF ELEVATE!!!!! :'D:'D:'D I could not be MORE proud of the boys!!!

That album.... It has saved my life TWICE.  TRIGGER WARNING HERE OKAY??

So when I got it, it was shortly after Christmas, and I was listening to it in the car with my mom. And at the time, I was battling with Anorexia and self-harm. But then "Covergirl" came on, and..... Everything changed. My mom would blare that song whenever it came on, and sing it to me, and after a while... I started to believe it. :')

And then we have this past summer. Oh my Forking God it was the most difficult summer I have ever been through. I was cutting again, and honestly, I was happy to die at one point. But then I started listening to "You're not alone." That song saved my life AGAIN. I swear, every time Kendall sings to look over your shoulder, I do it, and I sometimes even pretend he's standing there. It just.... My family situation was so complex and then my friend dumped me, so it was all I had. :') I just can't even put in to words what those two songs mean to me.

AND I SWEAR WITH GOD AS MY WITNESS I WILL MEET THOSE BOYS ONE DAY AND TELL THEM THANK YOU.

And that is all! :D
-Katie

I do not understand this. O.o

Like, seriously.

I DO NOT GET 90's SHOWS. But then again I was only 5 when they ended, so....

ANY WAYS. I have been neglecting my blog!! :'( but to be honest, all that has gone on was my grandparents leaving for Florida to take care of my aunt and her family, since she has cancer. WAIT!!!

I NEVER TOLD Y'ALL THAT!!!!!!!!!! :O Well, I was kind of avoiding it in case she read this.... but the cat is kind of out of the bag now.... Oops. :/ I hope she doesn't hate me for it!!!! Yeah, she has cancer. BUT! She will beat it, and she is already doing great! They got all the cancer stuff out with surgery and she starts chemo soon.

ENOUGH DOWN STUFF!!! Wait, that's all my life consists of. SUCKINESS. I swear all I am is a waste of space. Sometimes I wonder why I still fight my demons. But yet each day I feel like that but still somehow make it to bed without a relapse. But with the holidays coming.... I'm not so sure that it's going to last. But... I know how many people would hurt if I relapsed. My one friend would probably stop talking to me if I did. And he's kind of the only person I talk to on a regular basis, so.... I'm not about to f--k that up.

So yeah, my life pretty much sucks like always. :( But then again who honestly thought that would change?

Sigh.
-Katie

I have neglected my blog!! :O

I'm so sorry about that!!

I promise a nice long post tonight after I get home from work.

-Katie

3:25 AM

WHY THE FORK AM I STILL AWAKE?!??!????

So yeah..... THAT WAS THE MOTHER OF ALL TWISTS!!!!!! :O Yes I am talking about part 2 of Breaking Dawn. THE REVIEWS LIE!!!!!!

So yeah, THAT MARATHON WAS EPIC!!!!! :D:D:D and then we got lost on the way home. :P in the dark, 121 is very hard to find. We actually ended up going through Keller. >.> yeah.

AND NOW I AM HOME AND IT IS THREE THIRTY IN THE DAMN MORNING AND I CAN'T SLEEP!!!!!! AUGH!!!! How am I gonna meet up with friends later if I can't even stay awake?????? -.- I BLAME CAFFEINE AFTER 3 PM!!!!!!

Y'all can go back to sleep now. More tomorrow... Er, later today. I thought this might help me sleep but it isn't so.....

-Katie

ECLIPSING BABY!!!!

:D

We is so awesum. We just finished New Moon!!! :D NOW ON TO THE AWESOMER MOVIES!!!! :D

If only my headache would go away...

-Katie

ONE MOVIE DOWN.

FOUR MORE TO GO!!!!

But New Moon is next. :( I AM AGAINST NEW MOON!! I accept it, but.... IT IS SO FORKING DEPRESSING!!!!! The only reason I was able to read that book was because I was in Bella's shoes when I read it. Sigh.

Oh! I think stuff is happening!

-Katie

BREAKING DAWN PART 2!!!!!!

OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMFGGGGG!!!!!!!!

GUYS!!!! I AM GOING TO THE TWILIGHT MARATHON IN SOUTHLAKE!!!!!!! :D:D:D:D I am like, SO FREAKIN EXCITED because WE ARE GONNA BE THERE FOR THE PREMIERE OF THE FINAL MOVIE!!!!!!!

So yeah I am freaking out!!!! I will update periodically today on this blog and my twitter (@Cupcakrusher17 ) so feel free to check in often!!! :D

And now I am going to fangirl about this song. :D

-Katie

FEMALE PAINS!! Slightly triggering and boys beware

UGHH!!!!!!!!!!

I am going to complain today about female pains today, so if you don't want to read it (either because you are a dude or some other reason) click here for a different blog that will be just as awesome: http://blessingind.blogspot.com/2012/09/happy-post.html

For those who are reading this paragraph, CONGRATULATIONS!!! Ugh, I am SOOOOO fed up with my period. I know it is a good thing and it will eventually be helpful when I get married and want to have kids, but until then, ALL IT DOES IS MAKE ME BLOATED/FAT HAVE CRAVINGS AND MAKE ME BREAK OUT LIKE CRAZY!!!!

Why I am I complaining about this after I have been gone for like, ever? Well, long story short I relapsed again. :( I'm not proud of it, and I am mad that my mom found out, but then again she needed to know. But she found out the hard way (IE, I had foundation on my arm that was too dark and she noticed it. -.- ). And as a result I got grounded from the internet and my phone. But then I got it back, so.... Yay? :/ Oh well, I CAN BLOG AGAIN!!!!!!!! :D

That was the weirdest paragraph I think I have ever written. O,o Oh well. :P IN MORE ENJOYABLE NEWS: I get to go hang out with my friends on Friday night! :D:D:D:D Well, my writer friends anyways. We are gonna meet up at where I work and do stuff. IT WILL BE SO AWESOME!!!!!! :D

And I went camping! :O I will make a different post about that, since this one is getting really long. Anyways, that about catches y'all up!

TO THE CAMPING POST! :D

-Katie

PS: THIS BLOG HAS REACHED OVER 1150 PAGEVIEWS IN MY ABSENCE!!!!!!! :'D:'D:'D:'D:'D:'D