Questions, answers, and yes, TRIGGER WARNING.

This is last time.

I swear to God it will be the last time I will tell you relapse. I'm tired of it. I'm tired of hiding, I'm tired of crying, I'm tired of hurting like this. I hate it. I WANT to be happy again. I want to feel good. I want to smile. I want..... I just want to be ME AGAIN.

I hurt. I hurt every time someone screams. I hurt when my dad yells. I hurt when everyone is fighting. I hate. I hate this feeling, this never ending feeling of emptiness and loniless. I hate that I always want to leave. Leave and never come back here. But yet for some reason I stay. Why do I stay? .............I don't know.

I'm sorry. I don't know who reads this, but if you do, I'm sorry. I'm sorry that I let you down. I'm sorry to my friend Sophie that I broke my promise to not cut. I'm sorry that I failed you. But I promise you.

I promise you that this will be the last time I let you down. I promise I WILL get better, and I WILL be happy again. I promise you that I'll post more (Or at least try), and that this year.... It will be a journey we take together.

And I hope that if you're reading this.... that I made you feel less alone.

-Katie