So, y'all remember my dark days?
Well, if you don't, GOOD. I NEVER want to go back there EVER again. I remember it vividly. Not the before part so much, but once my friend abandon me.... I remember it all. Why the sudden flashback?
Because..... I was talking (Well, Direct messaging) with someone last night on twitter, and I told her my story. The story of how Big Time Rush saved me. Tell me it's crazy if you want, but you weren't there. YOU didn't feel the pain, and the misery. And you didn't have the internal fight every single day about wether or not to end it. I'm GLAD I talked myself out of it every single time. If I didn't do that, and I didn't have the song, "You're not alone," I'm not sure I would have had the strength to keep going.
But what made me the happiest last night was the fact that the person I was talking with said she was so happy that I called the suicide hotline. :) I'm glad I did too. and I ENCOURAGE you to do so if you ever feel like there isn't a reason to go on, or if you WANT to do it. The number is 1-800-273-8255. It's free, confidental, and it HELPS.
It makes me happy that I can say that it DOES get better, and that I have the power to help others with my story. :') It feels good to make a difference.
And that is all I have to say. It's starting again, so I gotta go.
Stay strong! I believe in you! :*
-Katie
Well, if you don't, GOOD. I NEVER want to go back there EVER again. I remember it vividly. Not the before part so much, but once my friend abandon me.... I remember it all. Why the sudden flashback?
Because..... I was talking (Well, Direct messaging) with someone last night on twitter, and I told her my story. The story of how Big Time Rush saved me. Tell me it's crazy if you want, but you weren't there. YOU didn't feel the pain, and the misery. And you didn't have the internal fight every single day about wether or not to end it. I'm GLAD I talked myself out of it every single time. If I didn't do that, and I didn't have the song, "You're not alone," I'm not sure I would have had the strength to keep going.
But what made me the happiest last night was the fact that the person I was talking with said she was so happy that I called the suicide hotline. :) I'm glad I did too. and I ENCOURAGE you to do so if you ever feel like there isn't a reason to go on, or if you WANT to do it. The number is 1-800-273-8255. It's free, confidental, and it HELPS.
It makes me happy that I can say that it DOES get better, and that I have the power to help others with my story. :') It feels good to make a difference.
And that is all I have to say. It's starting again, so I gotta go.
Stay strong! I believe in you! :*
-Katie
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