Forgive me for doing it this way.
But you've blocked me out every other way, and I know you've read this before. I just want to talk to you so badly right now. For things to be the way they were before, for this situation to work itself out. Maybe it is and that's why we both have suffered.
But at the same time I'm scared for tomorrow, what's coming. I'm scared of how you'll react around me, if you'll do the same thing I did that first time. Or, worse, if you'll pull me to the side and tear me apart again. I only did what I did out of love my friend. I just want what's best for you. But maybe... Maybe the reason I went through that persecution, the reason I lost you, was so that we found each other again, and this time we were both stronger, and able to love each other more.
Scars heal with time, and time heals all wounds. I never hated you, I was simply fed up with the back and forth. I had no right to say what I did and I'm SORRY. More sorry than I think I've ever been about anything before. Everyone tells me I shouldn't apologize yet here I am doing it. Why? Because I care about you, and I never hated you.
I guess that's it. If you have to tear me apart or hate me or just be generally mean to me tomorrow, could you please be gentle about it? I'm stronger, yes, but honey I'm not made of steel.
-Katie
But you've blocked me out every other way, and I know you've read this before. I just want to talk to you so badly right now. For things to be the way they were before, for this situation to work itself out. Maybe it is and that's why we both have suffered.
But at the same time I'm scared for tomorrow, what's coming. I'm scared of how you'll react around me, if you'll do the same thing I did that first time. Or, worse, if you'll pull me to the side and tear me apart again. I only did what I did out of love my friend. I just want what's best for you. But maybe... Maybe the reason I went through that persecution, the reason I lost you, was so that we found each other again, and this time we were both stronger, and able to love each other more.
Scars heal with time, and time heals all wounds. I never hated you, I was simply fed up with the back and forth. I had no right to say what I did and I'm SORRY. More sorry than I think I've ever been about anything before. Everyone tells me I shouldn't apologize yet here I am doing it. Why? Because I care about you, and I never hated you.
I guess that's it. If you have to tear me apart or hate me or just be generally mean to me tomorrow, could you please be gentle about it? I'm stronger, yes, but honey I'm not made of steel.
-Katie
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