I know I haven't posted.

Sorry about that.

I've been SUUUUUUUUUUPER busy lately! :D And in a good way too. First came youth group which I am LOVING. It's just... wow. And I've also had HOMECOMING!!! :D:D:D That was freaking INCREDIBLE!! And then, I WENT TO SIX FLAGS!!!!!!!! :O:O:O

Yeah, it was world youth day, and I had a magical ticket to fun! :D But I didn't get to get on any of the safe, non-terrifying roller coasters. -___- Oh well. I made a new friend too! AND I SURVIVED FRIGHT FEST Y'ALL!!! :P Piggy DIDN'T get me (It was piggy from piggy's blood shed, and he came out with a chain saw), the zombie DIDN'T get me (Some dude who chose us when we were on our way to Looney Tunes land and Pandemonium), and I got a ducky too! :D A stuffed ducky mind you. :P

And now I am preparing for Girl Scouts next week. And leading the whole meeting. And teaching everyone about depression and the physical manifestations of it. And yes I know that depression has several physical manifestations, but the three I am choosing to cover are; Self-harm, eating disorders, and suicide. And the only reason I am doing this is because it's the only way I can safely tell them the truth.

Yes, they know absolutely NOTHING about it all. I haven't shared this blog on facebook for that reason, and somehow they never noticed my cuts. And I feel like I have to after everything that's gone down with my friend. Like this is the first step towards healing for both of us. And I intend to share the letters I've written here to her with the group. Maybe. We'll see.

Just pray this goes well, because I am still so terrified that what happened with my friend will happen with the whole troop. My mom doesn't seem to think so and she's even talked with a few moms, and they think it needs to be done. But I'm still just so scared. I opened up to my friend and look what happened? That's why I feel like this has to go perfectly. Ugh.

I have a feeling it wll go well though, somewhere inside of me. Just whisper a prayer for me on November 5th, okay? :)

And now I am off to work on the stuff for this badge. Away!!!!
-Katie

A letter to someone again.

Two nights ago I saw you.

And I thought of you. How good you looked, how happy you were. How for once things weren't awkward or painful, at least on my end. I saw you and I thought maybe things were better for you. That for once you weren't in pain, or killing your pain with pain. That you weren't taking a pocket-knife to your skin, and I hope you didn't purge. You ate all of your dinner. That made me so happy. You have no idea how excited I was that you did that. Compared to the last time we ate together.... It made me feel good.

And you said words to me again! Do you know how long it's been since you've said more than necessary to me? I do, and I never thought that would happen. And yes, you are beautiful. Even in work out pants and an old T-shirt you're still beautiful. You're a little too skinny, but after what you've been through, it's okay. I still wish I could fix it all for you, but in time I think you'll find the healing I did.

Just know I never EVER hated you. I ALWAYS loved you. Even when we were ripped apart, I thought it was what you wanted, and what would make you happy. I promise you, even if we never go back to the way we were, I'll always love you and I'll always want you to be happy.

-Katie

Why you should hate Harry Reid right now.

HE SAID HE WASN'T GONNA HELP KIDS WITH CANCER GET TREATMENT!!!!

Well kind of. It went like this; There was going to be a study at the national institute of health for a group of kids who have cancer. Harry Reid appeared on CNN today, and was questioned, and well... hear for yourself here. He said that when, earlier in the day, he appeared on the senate floor chastising the republican party for not caring about children with cancer. As my dad said, "Can you say HYPOCRITE?!"

And he is to thank for this whole shut down. The republicans in the house have been passing minute funding bills all day, but grumpy pants above them has said no all day! Meanwhile a woman had her dream wedding at the Grand Canyon ruined because the parks are closed. The WWII veterans, who traveled MILES, who are 70 and 80 years old, to see the memorial put there in their honor, were told that they couldn't see it because of Mr. Reid. Granted that's a totally different story, and those men had EVERY RIGHT to move those gates, but they wouldn't have had to if senator Reid had just put his petty attitude aside and done what he was put in to office to do; LEAD THIS COUNTRY AND PASS BILLS THAT BENEFIT THE PEOPLE, NOT HIS PAYCHECK. He is President Obama's lapdog and it's HIS fault the government is shut down and thousands of people are now out of work. He can pass the blame off on the Republican party all he wants, but ultimately this is HIS fault.

I know this isn't the typical babble I post about here, but this stuff needs to be said, and I'm not about to let the opportunity pass. And feel free to comment telling me otherwise, or tweet me @Thatcoolrusher. I want to hear your opinions and thoughts on this, as well as hear your feedback. Let's get a discussion going!

And I intend to post about this shut down as it goes on. This is a unique opportunity, and we should learn and read as much as we can about this, so we learn from these peoples mistakes. Because history often rhymes, or repeats itself. I hope to hear from you guys soon, in the comments and on twitter!

Oh, and remember Ted Cruz? While the government is in shutdown and he's still getting paid (Again, hit me up on twitter ;), he's donating all of it to charity.

Until tomorrow
-Katie