I can explain my last two posts.
See, my.... friend (Idk what to call her alright?) has ended up in my dreams the past two nights and one of them I dreamed she committed suicide. I have no way of talking to her, no way to contact her, her mom has denied that she has a problem, and I highly doubt she's getting any kind of support other than from her BF, who I'm not sure is still in the picture.
So yes, I am writing her letters in my blog. I've done it before and I'll probably do it again, because this is all I CAN do. It helps to some degree, but lately it hasn't. And I don't like that, because it used to. But somehow.... I just feel really uneasy.
Maybe it's the presentation on Tuesday. >_< I'm pretty stressed about that too. I just don't want to screw up, ya know? And it's in a church setting and I have no God in this AT ALL at the moment. I'm meeting with the head of Youth Ministry on Monday to work on it. UGH THERE IS JUST TOO MUCH STRESS IN MY LIFE ATM.
Please excuse me while I go blast BTR. And share my last two posts please. It would make me genuinely happy, because everyone knows someone who knows someone and it will, in a very round-about way, get to her.
That's all I've got right now guys. :/
-Katie
Twitter: @Thatcoolrusher
Youtube: Theotherguitargeek (I know my last video was almost a long time ago but I'm working on stuff to post there!)
Instagram: Cupcakerusher15
Tumblr: http://cupcakerusher17yo.tumblr.com/
See, my.... friend (Idk what to call her alright?) has ended up in my dreams the past two nights and one of them I dreamed she committed suicide. I have no way of talking to her, no way to contact her, her mom has denied that she has a problem, and I highly doubt she's getting any kind of support other than from her BF, who I'm not sure is still in the picture.
So yes, I am writing her letters in my blog. I've done it before and I'll probably do it again, because this is all I CAN do. It helps to some degree, but lately it hasn't. And I don't like that, because it used to. But somehow.... I just feel really uneasy.
Maybe it's the presentation on Tuesday. >_< I'm pretty stressed about that too. I just don't want to screw up, ya know? And it's in a church setting and I have no God in this AT ALL at the moment. I'm meeting with the head of Youth Ministry on Monday to work on it. UGH THERE IS JUST TOO MUCH STRESS IN MY LIFE ATM.
Please excuse me while I go blast BTR. And share my last two posts please. It would make me genuinely happy, because everyone knows someone who knows someone and it will, in a very round-about way, get to her.
That's all I've got right now guys. :/
-Katie
Twitter: @Thatcoolrusher
Youtube: Theotherguitargeek (I know my last video was almost a long time ago but I'm working on stuff to post there!)
Instagram: Cupcakerusher15
Tumblr: http://cupcakerusher17yo.tumblr.com/
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