PROM DRESS DIVERGENCE!!!! :D:D:D:D

Have you ever dipped frito's in your tomato soup? :P

It is seriously AMAZING, and I'm not just saying that because I have a SLIGHT obsession with Fritos. :P anyways, TWO REALLY BIG THINGS HAPPENED TODAY!!!!! :O and warning, MULTIPLE SPOILERS AHEAD.

Now then, I FINISHED THE DIVERGENT SERIES!!!!!! :D: I'm not sure how I feel about that. But at the same time I know I was actually CRYING at the final chapters. I actually burst in to tears when Tobias considered using the memory serum and had to set the book down. :P AND I LIKE NEVER CRY AT STUFF LIKE THAT. I didn't cry when Prim died, I don't cry at movies, yet I cry at Tobias in his state of grief and depression. I cry at the most random shit man. I think it has to do with when I was thirteen and I would cry at the drop of a hat and my mom told me to stop and toughen up. I think that lesson might have stuck a little too well. :/ Eh, whatever.

I ALSO BOUGHT MY PROM DRESS TONIGHT!!!!!!! :D:D:D:D:D:D:D I am BEYOND stoked at that, okay??????? Click here to see a picture of what it will look like. My mom had to meausre me tonight and I found out that, depending on where you take the measurements from, I am a perfect hourglass figure. :P Not that it really matters to me, but it's nice to know my body ISN'T what I spent months of my life telling myself it was.

I actually do have moments where I think I'm beautiful. I can see it, and recognize it, but I still can't see it as being confident and not prideful or deny it. I think I'm abnegation in that aspect of my life. Did I really just say that? :P Well it's true. I no longer hate shopping and it no longer hates me. I can wear an extra large and not have a complete break down about it. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAND.... Read this.

I have a big post coming later this week (Or sometime in the future, depends on a few things :P) about self-esteem. And a certain toy....

Stay tuned! ^.^
-Katie

WHAT UPPPPP!!!!!!!!

No, I'm not gonna do that song. :P

But I AM going to explain why I've been gone all week (Though I doubt most of you even care); I've been sick and writhing in pain most of the week! -____- Not literally, but Tuesday just about. PS: MY PRIMARY CARE DOCTOR SUCKS CUZ SHE WOULDN'T SEE ME!!!! You know who you are. You could have easily given me a new antibiotic and pain meds. I hate you. ;)

Ugh, I even had to miss Youth Group!!!!! D: I HATE missing Youth Group. But now I am all better (Mostly) and am going to the orthodontist today! :D It's just a consult so he can see my pretty teeth and make 'em prettier! :P but yeah, not much happening over here.

OH WAIT YEAH THERE IS I'M DEVOURING THE DIVERGENT SERIES!!!!! Or would it be called a Trilogy? Hmm.... But yes, LOVE LOVE LOOOOOOOOOOOVE THOSE BOOKS!!!!!!!!! :D:D:D:D:D I'm currently on Insurgent. :D NO SPOILERS. :P My mom won't give me any either. Although I FREAKING HATE Marcus!!!! That rat! :P that is all on that subject. :P

So yeah, go check em out. My mom started reading it after she finished the Hunger Games, and she's finished the series in two weeks. Even my little BROTHER, who has a fifth grade reading level, is reading it. And he NEVER reads. THANK YOU VERONICA ROTH. :D

Alright I'm gonna stop spazzing out now. :P OH WAIT BEING HUMAN THIS WEEK HADSJK;LGHJFSK;LHJSKD;LFGJK;LDFGJH SALLY'S BROTHER, AIDAN, JOSH AND NORA, JSKAFL;GJDFSK;LJGS;KLDHJDHJGSK;LHJ

That is all! xD
-Katie

Oh Kendall! :P

THIS.

Sorry it cuts like two thirds through but go back to the beginning and it will all make sense. :P I CAN'T WITH KENLOS FEELS RIGHT NOW OKAY?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!

HDSKJGLHJDSKLFGHK;LAHDS;GJFDK;LBNKLDS;HARIO;EGJNDK;LFSBGNMO THAT BOY I SWEAR!!!!!! xD

THAT IS ALL.
-Katie

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CANDY

Guys I seriously have the best mom.

She bought me candy to make me feel better! :D

-Katie

Valentine's day sucks okay?

Hey!

Remember when this happened last year on Valentine's day?! Yeah! I THOUGHT IT WOULD HAPPEN AGAIN BUT WITH ROSES THIS TIME! -________- Turns out I was dead wrong.

I'm not here to tell you how Valentine's day is the best day ever. I'm not here to tell you how you don't need a man or some other feminist shit. I'm here to tell you I'm lonely and I'm tired of being lonely and alone on Valentines Day. I thought for ONCE I would have a boyfriend. and that he would give (Well, send, since he was in Maryland) me roses and chocolates and everything I wanted. I thought he would maybe even show up at my door and give them to me.

But I was wrong. Turns out I'm nursing a bruised heart and a shattered ego. He took advantage of me emotionally, he messed with my head, and has left me feeling like a fool, questioning everything. So he can just go to fucking hell. He will forever more be known in this blog as Jerkwad or Jerkhead. Today has sucked all around for everyone.

I have a plan to make myself feel less alone though. When my mom goes to the store later, I'm gonna buy a box of Valentines, and I'm going to give one to every person in the store who is single, alone, or lonely. That way we can be a little less miserable together. I might even make a vlog out of it.

And in the meantime..... THERE HAS TO BE COME CHOCOLATE AROUND HERE SOMEWHERE!!!!
-Katie

Twitter: @Thatcoolrusher
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My fanfiction story. :P

Okay so I'm betting 95% of you know what fanfiction is.

If you don't, RUN AND DON'T EVER GET INVOLVED. You will probably be horrified if you search some up. :P Most people are. so like I said, RUN.

Now then, for those of you who do (And possibly write it), congratulations! :D I myself have been writing (NON-SEXUAL) fanfic since I was about 13. Yes, I started that young. I didn't even realize it or know what it was at that time. I just remember sitting in the garage that had been turned in to another room (A playroom that never was), air conditioner going, and typing away most of my summer.

Now it was really really REALLY bad and I will probably never share it with anyone. EVER. Except for this one time when I was fifteen and convinced that I was going to publish this one in to a book. BUT we will ignore that. It was about Demi Lovato and the Jonas brothers, but the main ship was Jemi. I am SO GLAD that it never saw the light of day. I still get made fun of for it from time to time.

But now I write BTR fanfic and, if I do say so, it is quite popular. I remember sharing a couple of chapters on twitter and with my closest friends. I have a few different ones, but the one I had shared was called "Cover Girl." I always put myself in it (Selfish and uncreative, I know :P), and I had actually started it in the middle of my suicidal days. It was about how I was going to rebuild with Kendall through love. It was real world, not AU (Author's universe). I never actually finished it, but with some editing I might share it with y'all one day.

I have not EVER written a ship one though. My OTP is Kenlos, and I really like Kendall as sub. :P Maybe one day I will, maybe I won't. I don't like writing it as a "ship" ship though, more like just friends, crushes at the most. I'm more of a straight girl. :P

So yeah, anyone have any experiences with fanfic? What's your fandom? Got an OTP? Lemme know in the comments or on instagram or tumblr! :D I'm currently on twitter break because DRAMA. -.- Such is my life. :P So lemme knooooow! :D

-Katie

PS: YOU GUYS ARE AMAZING WE'RE ALMOST TO 5,100 WITHIN A WEEK. :D I haven't thought of a way to celebrate with y'all yet, but I will, I promise. :)

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CONCERT PHOTO AWESOMENESS!!!!

Turns out I just had to turn the camera on. :P
-Katie

Part 7: Pictures! :D

It's taken me... oh geez it's taken me nine months but here's photos from 2013 guys. :P
-Katie

ALL PARTS: http://blessingind.blogspot.com/2013/06/i-met-big-time-rush-yesterday.html

PART 6: http://blessingind.blogspot.com/2013/07/part-6-best-concert-since-big-time.html