Okay gang, time for one of THOSE posts.
You know, the ones where I try to be a mentor and teach you something that might be useful to you at some point in your life. So, to start us off, start listening to this.
Once again, country music has written my life story. I wish, with all my heart, that someone had told me all of that sooner. Or been there to tell me. To tell me to listen to the side of me that was skeptical in my relationship. Then again, I never really told anyone about what we did. What he said, what we talked about... The only one who knew even a little bit about it was my therapist.
But... he talked me in to some really bad stuff. Like, writing things I wasn't comfortable writing, mind control when we were playing pretend (Don't ask, okay?), he was too submissive... And then the amount of cussing. And the fact he was okay with everything being a secret from my MOM. And that he didn't care about anything in my past, and as long as I stopped he didn't care. I just.... And now everything is in broad daylight.
All he wanted from me was virtual sex pretty much. All he wanted was for me to write him what was pretty much porn and I went along with it, thinking I was being a good girlfriend. That I was really in love. And I was seventeen and niave the whole time. There is something seriously wrong and sick about taking advantage of a teenager, ESPECIALLY one as unique and giving and caring as me. And now I'm left hollow, and questioning everything.
So don't be afraid to listen to that side of you that has concerns about something. TAKE THE TIME TO TALK TO YOUR SIGNIFICANT OTHER. It will save you so much hurt in the end. It might sting now but it can't possibly hurt as much as it will in three, six, even nine months from now when you figure out the truth.
As for the creep who took advantage of seventeen-year-old me and is getting off with no charges; You are dead to me. You just lost the best thing you ever had. And guess what? I feel sorry for you. You don't know how to love, all you know is how to lust. screw you. I could string together so many profanities about you and scream at my computer for all the shit you did, but instead I will listen to my country music, eat my cheesecake brownie ice cream, and think of all the good I have ahead of me. That I have prom, I might have found an escort, and I found a KILLER dress that you will NEVER see. So fuck you, okay?
I hope everyone has learned something here. Lord knows my therapist is gonna hear about this tomorrow.... It's late, I'm tired, and I just need to sleep all this drama off. Goodnight guys.
-Katie
You know, the ones where I try to be a mentor and teach you something that might be useful to you at some point in your life. So, to start us off, start listening to this.
Once again, country music has written my life story. I wish, with all my heart, that someone had told me all of that sooner. Or been there to tell me. To tell me to listen to the side of me that was skeptical in my relationship. Then again, I never really told anyone about what we did. What he said, what we talked about... The only one who knew even a little bit about it was my therapist.
But... he talked me in to some really bad stuff. Like, writing things I wasn't comfortable writing, mind control when we were playing pretend (Don't ask, okay?), he was too submissive... And then the amount of cussing. And the fact he was okay with everything being a secret from my MOM. And that he didn't care about anything in my past, and as long as I stopped he didn't care. I just.... And now everything is in broad daylight.
All he wanted from me was virtual sex pretty much. All he wanted was for me to write him what was pretty much porn and I went along with it, thinking I was being a good girlfriend. That I was really in love. And I was seventeen and niave the whole time. There is something seriously wrong and sick about taking advantage of a teenager, ESPECIALLY one as unique and giving and caring as me. And now I'm left hollow, and questioning everything.
So don't be afraid to listen to that side of you that has concerns about something. TAKE THE TIME TO TALK TO YOUR SIGNIFICANT OTHER. It will save you so much hurt in the end. It might sting now but it can't possibly hurt as much as it will in three, six, even nine months from now when you figure out the truth.
As for the creep who took advantage of seventeen-year-old me and is getting off with no charges; You are dead to me. You just lost the best thing you ever had. And guess what? I feel sorry for you. You don't know how to love, all you know is how to lust. screw you. I could string together so many profanities about you and scream at my computer for all the shit you did, but instead I will listen to my country music, eat my cheesecake brownie ice cream, and think of all the good I have ahead of me. That I have prom, I might have found an escort, and I found a KILLER dress that you will NEVER see. So fuck you, okay?
I hope everyone has learned something here. Lord knows my therapist is gonna hear about this tomorrow.... It's late, I'm tired, and I just need to sleep all this drama off. Goodnight guys.
-Katie
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