Thinking I might post once a week just to dump my frustrations. *Shrugs*
Anyways, for some odd reason the last post sparked a HUUUUUGE spike in traffic. Like 400+ views spike. So uh, thanks for that guys. Anyways the reason I am here today is to bitch about how I'm pretty sure I'm fucking up my whole future by not having any extra-curriculars.
Now here me out on this! I've read and heard bits and pieces. Apparently a lot of jobs look at not just your GPA (and mine is stellar. I'm on the honor's list). They want extra cirriculars. They think a 4.0 means you have no people skills. And then there's the whole thing of "work experience." Ugh. Like it's hard enough trying to work to PAY for the things I need for school. And then, with work I have the added stress of "this could be homework time." And my job provides plenty of people skills!
......I think I'm fucking up my own arguement. Oh well. I'm just super stressed about it because I'm worried I'm doing everything all wrong. Though I'm almost twenty-one and most of the people in my classes are little baby eighteen-year-olds, and like half of them don't even want to be there. Well at least in math and music. Like this one dude. He shows up like, once every two weeks, and then he usually leaves before class is over. He's loud, he's obnoxious, and really, really, irritating. Like you can sooooo tell he doesn't want to be there! Like dude, you're PAYING for this torture. You had to willingly enroll and pay LOTS OF MONEY for this brand of torture. And music class is EASY. Well, mostly easy. I just sit and listen to my teacher geek out for an hour, I write a few things and listen to weird music (aka things from the early to mid twentieth century). It's EASY.
Compared to English, I almost relish music class. It's an hour I can plan and let my mind wander. Or throb. Like it did today. Yeah.... math gives me a headache. Anyways it is once again almost midnight and I am too anxious to sleep. Like that's another thing guys. My anxiety has taken over my life again. Though I'm doing most of this to myself.
Like.... I don't even know how to explain it. It's like I have to overthink and plan and I'm constantly thinking anything and everything could fall apart and I have to be prepared. Like it's fucking IRRITATING. Ugh. this turned into a poorly-written rant, much like my English paper. Well....
Until next time. I love you and you're good enough.
-Katie
Anyways, for some odd reason the last post sparked a HUUUUUGE spike in traffic. Like 400+ views spike. So uh, thanks for that guys. Anyways the reason I am here today is to bitch about how I'm pretty sure I'm fucking up my whole future by not having any extra-curriculars.
Now here me out on this! I've read and heard bits and pieces. Apparently a lot of jobs look at not just your GPA (and mine is stellar. I'm on the honor's list). They want extra cirriculars. They think a 4.0 means you have no people skills. And then there's the whole thing of "work experience." Ugh. Like it's hard enough trying to work to PAY for the things I need for school. And then, with work I have the added stress of "this could be homework time." And my job provides plenty of people skills!
......I think I'm fucking up my own arguement. Oh well. I'm just super stressed about it because I'm worried I'm doing everything all wrong. Though I'm almost twenty-one and most of the people in my classes are little baby eighteen-year-olds, and like half of them don't even want to be there. Well at least in math and music. Like this one dude. He shows up like, once every two weeks, and then he usually leaves before class is over. He's loud, he's obnoxious, and really, really, irritating. Like you can sooooo tell he doesn't want to be there! Like dude, you're PAYING for this torture. You had to willingly enroll and pay LOTS OF MONEY for this brand of torture. And music class is EASY. Well, mostly easy. I just sit and listen to my teacher geek out for an hour, I write a few things and listen to weird music (aka things from the early to mid twentieth century). It's EASY.
Compared to English, I almost relish music class. It's an hour I can plan and let my mind wander. Or throb. Like it did today. Yeah.... math gives me a headache. Anyways it is once again almost midnight and I am too anxious to sleep. Like that's another thing guys. My anxiety has taken over my life again. Though I'm doing most of this to myself.
Like.... I don't even know how to explain it. It's like I have to overthink and plan and I'm constantly thinking anything and everything could fall apart and I have to be prepared. Like it's fucking IRRITATING. Ugh. this turned into a poorly-written rant, much like my English paper. Well....
Until next time. I love you and you're good enough.
-Katie
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