So I've been twenty-one for about five days now (Give or take, depending on when you read this). But... nothing feels different?
I mean I've been over this before (Probably), but.... Well things are simultaneously vastly different yet completely the same. Aside from a few new privileges the law just gave me (drinking, the ability to buy sharpies and spray paint...), I'm just... still the same person I was before.
Except. Remember when this was a thing? Well, it's a thing again. Only my schedule is just too rigid and now this THING (that is still baffling EVERYONE) is turning what was once a perfectly synchronized machine into a frantic conveyor belt of mess.
I've missed work and I am missing Math class tomorrow. I NEVER miss work or class. I can't work out. I'm exhuasted and constantly sleepy. Like I slept until one this afternoon and I almost didn't go to class. My mom had to WALK ME to class today I was so dizzy. What is my life becoming? I'm not sure.
I just wish someone could tell me WTF IS WRONG WITH ME. Literally no one can figure it out and it's REALLY IRRITATING! Ugh. But on the plus side I have gotten out of work and math. But missing work means less money and my hours are already getting cut. :(
So yeah. Adult things. I really don't know what the point of this was other than a general life update but whatever. My advice is this: Take adulthood like Colossus takes hero-ing: Two or three moments. Probably a lot more than that. But for me, that's about all I can handle a day. I recognize now though that I do more than that on a daily basis. I work a job (adulting). I go to college (MAJOR adulting). I watch Youtube videos with swearing (My mom's idea of adulting). I am a gay woman in a monogamous relationship (VERY adulting). I suck at people though. Except lately I just haven't had ENERGY for people and all the BS that is required of it. Like pretending to care about customers and put up with their hellians- I mean children. Again, examples of adulthood. I much prefer wrangling them myself in a classroom environment. .....That came out wrong.
ANYWAYS! I have to work tomorrow and I think I am about out of sense-making things to say. In case you haven't heard it today: I love you and you're good enough.
Sincerely,
-Katie
I mean I've been over this before (Probably), but.... Well things are simultaneously vastly different yet completely the same. Aside from a few new privileges the law just gave me (drinking, the ability to buy sharpies and spray paint...), I'm just... still the same person I was before.
Except. Remember when this was a thing? Well, it's a thing again. Only my schedule is just too rigid and now this THING (that is still baffling EVERYONE) is turning what was once a perfectly synchronized machine into a frantic conveyor belt of mess.
I've missed work and I am missing Math class tomorrow. I NEVER miss work or class. I can't work out. I'm exhuasted and constantly sleepy. Like I slept until one this afternoon and I almost didn't go to class. My mom had to WALK ME to class today I was so dizzy. What is my life becoming? I'm not sure.
I just wish someone could tell me WTF IS WRONG WITH ME. Literally no one can figure it out and it's REALLY IRRITATING! Ugh. But on the plus side I have gotten out of work and math. But missing work means less money and my hours are already getting cut. :(
So yeah. Adult things. I really don't know what the point of this was other than a general life update but whatever. My advice is this: Take adulthood like Colossus takes hero-ing: Two or three moments. Probably a lot more than that. But for me, that's about all I can handle a day. I recognize now though that I do more than that on a daily basis. I work a job (adulting). I go to college (MAJOR adulting). I watch Youtube videos with swearing (My mom's idea of adulting). I am a gay woman in a monogamous relationship (VERY adulting). I suck at people though. Except lately I just haven't had ENERGY for people and all the BS that is required of it. Like pretending to care about customers and put up with their hellians- I mean children. Again, examples of adulthood. I much prefer wrangling them myself in a classroom environment. .....That came out wrong.
ANYWAYS! I have to work tomorrow and I think I am about out of sense-making things to say. In case you haven't heard it today: I love you and you're good enough.
Sincerely,
-Katie
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