PART 4: POST MEET AND GREET CALM DOWN

So I was literally shaking and about to cry after.

PART 4: AFTER MEET AND GREET AND OPENING ACTS:

My friend and I were literally holding each other, and she almost passed out. As I explained in the last blog. JAMES HAS NOTICED ME THREE TIMES NOW. So we finally get to the place where we can breath somewhat normally (And can stand :P), and we head to the VIP lounge, since it was really cool (Temperature wise), and my mom could sit. We get over there and get our bags, and then I take to social media, meaning TWITTER. AND EVERYONE WAS HAPPY FOR ME. I also kind of changed my name to Kendall liked my hug, sooo.... check me out? :) @Cupcakerusher17

So I stop shaking enough to form somewhat readable sentences (At this point they had been OCNG I JUGGED KEMDALL SCHUDMIT x). So once I CAN type again, I realize how thirsty I am. so I go get soda with new friend. :D Then we went shopping! xD

OMG GUYS SO MY BRACELET BROKE FRIDAY AND SO DID MY HEART CUZ I WANTED THAT BRACELET TO AT LEAST GO MEET THE BOYS WITH ME. D: I gave it an instagram funeral,  all my closest friends were able to attend. I don't even know what I'm saying right now but it's all true I think. maybe. xD

ANYWAYS. I got NEW BRACELETS!!!! :D:D:D:D:D:D And a new shirt too! :D Two actually, since one came with our VIP package. :) While I waited in line for the bag, my mom was talking to one of the VIP people and she was like, telling her that they literally saved my life and to tell them thank you. ^^ The people in charge were awesome. my mom was on crutches the whole day and they took really good care of her, which made me happy, because I'm always worried about her and stuff. :P SO BIG BIG BIG THANK YOU TO VIP NATION AND DUSTIN FOR BEING SO FREAKING AWESOME! :D And soon enough it was time for us to head to our seats to see the opening acts while everyone else was going crazy because they were what we like to call, "the general public." xD NEXT PART PLEASE! :D

PART 5: http://blessingind.blogspot.com/2013/07/part-5-katie-kopp-scale-of-approval.html
ALL PARTS: http://blessingind.blogspot.com/2013/06/i-met-big-time-rush-yesterday.html

PART 3: I HUGGED KENDALL SCHMIDT

I HUGGED HIM GOOOOOOD XD

IT IS NOT AS DIRTY AS THAT MAKES IT SOUND!!!! I ASUURE you, that I was very professional. :P Who am I kidding? I HAD A GOOD MELTDOWN AFTER BUT THAT IS TOO FAR AHEAD. LET'S ALL GO BACK TO THE BEGINNING OF MEET AND GREET SHALL WE?

MEET AND GREET:

Okay so we were well at the back of the line, BUT THANKS TO THE WONDERFUL PEOPLE AT VIP NATION....... WE GOT MOVED TO THE FRONT OF THE LINE!!!!!!!!!!! :D:D:D:D:D:D I have never been so happy that my mom had an injury xD ANYWAYS, we (Me and my new friend! :) were prepping each other. a few other people were ahead of us. Dustin made us put our bags on the table, and my phone had to stay in my pocket. I was perfectly happy with that. I was literally next in line and I was shaking so bad. Dustin told me to go, and it's still kind of a blur. but this is what I remember happening: Dustin told me to go. I froze for a minute, before I darted to Kendall, and apparently I nearly knocked him over. :P SORRY KENDALL!!! Anyways, I gripped him in to a bear hug, mumbling a sorry to Dustin in to Kendall chest. HE SMELLS AMAZING BY THE WAY. xD Don't ask, I have weird friends okay? :P He was like, "That's a nice hug!" I don't remember if I said anything else, but then I was gently moved next to Logan and Carlos. We took a photo (Which I'm praying doesn't look as bad as when I met Nick Jonas), and then James said, "we'll see you soon sweetie." SWEETIE. JAMES MASLOW, WHO NOTICED BANDANA WOMAN AND WISHED ME A HAPPY BIRTHDAY OVER THE INTERNET CALLED ME SWEETIE! I was then kind of shooed out. I went back out the way I came, and then the girl I was hanging out with came out and the conversation went something like... "Oh my god I hugged Kendall!" "Oh my god I hugged James!" "Oh my god I can't breathe!" "Oh my god James called me sweetie!" "Oh my god Kendall smells amazing!" "OMG James smells amazing!" And we were like, hyperventilating, and my friend almost passed out. We were freaking out so much people were staring at us. :P LIKE WHAT THE FUCK YOU PEOPLE ARE TOO CALM YOU JUST HUGGED JAMES FREAKIN MASLOW OKAY YOU DO NOT STAY CALM AFTERWARDS!!!!! xD But yeah. :3 AND I GOT MESSAGES AND LETTERS DELIVERED SAFELY!!! :D

Everyone was fangirling for me on twitter too. :P It was nice. :)

PART 4: http://blessingind.blogspot.com/2013/06/part-4-post-meet-and-greet-calm-down.html
ALL OF THE PARTS: http://blessingind.blogspot.com/2013/06/i-met-big-time-rush-yesterday.html

PART 2: SOUND CHECK

So the title says it all! :D

SOUND CHECK:

Alright so when I get excited, I tend to look around a lot. And when I'm excited at a concert, I tend to look around a lot. And with FLOOR SEATS, it's really easy to see the sides of the stage. And thus, I look around a lot. :P I saw Carlos and Alexa before Carlos came out. ;) That's right, I'm that awesome. xD So DBelt was- no IS awesome, and explained the whole process to us; how soundcheck worked, how we were gonna go for meet and greet, and then he grabbed his guitar and the guys came out. :) KENDALL IS BEAUTIMUS ESPECIALLY WITH A GUITAR AGAINST HIS PERFECT BODY!!! well... yeah.... :P They answered some interesting questions... One little girl asked if Carlos liked corn dogs, and someone asked why he wore the helment. She was also a little girl, and I feel the need to elaborate on that one it was just freaking ADORABLE!!! :))))

Little Girl: Why do you wear the helmet?

Carlos: Well do you have a favorite blanket or toy that makes you feel safe?

Little Girl: No.

Carlos: Well do you have someone who makes you feel really loved and safe?

Little Girl: Yeah

Carlos: Well my helmet is like my toy or person, it makes me feel safe and protected.


And the corndog question:

Carlos: What's your question?

Little Girl: I like corn dogs.

Carlos: I like corn dogs too. Do you like mustard?

Little Girl: No.

Carlos: Do you like Ketchup?

Little Girl: Yes.

Carlos: Now see, that's where we're gonna have a problem.

xD I LOVE THOSE GUYS. Well yeah, and then the filed us out, row by row, for meet and greet. And THAT is something you guys need to know every single detail I can remember of.

PART 3: http://blessingind.blogspot.com/2013/06/part-3-i-hugged-kendall-schmidt.html
ALL PARTS: http://blessingind.blogspot.com/2013/06/i-met-big-time-rush-yesterday.html

PART 1: WE BE WAITIN'

Yeah..... It was a cool-ish wait at least! :P

PART 1: GETTING TO THE MAGIC

So we arrive at two thirty, in an attempt to meet people from the internet! :D Well, that kinda flopped. :P BUT! I made a new friend! :D Het name is Brandi, and she is AWESOME! :D *Friendship acquired*

So yeah, we get to talking, and I find myself a rusher. She's awesome. :P My mom talks with her mom and she convinces her to let us hang out with her all day! :D Brandi, her mom wasn't staying :P So we get our "briefing" you could say. basically Christine, who was in charge (ALONG WITH DUSTIN FREAKING BELT) gave us the run down of the things we were gonna do, which we already knew, and how to check in and gifts and blah blah blah. So finally, THE LINE STARTS MOVING!!! :D:D:D:D:D:D We get up there pretty quick and the lady got us checked in on paper and then Dbelt gave us our tickets. They did the ever predictable bag check, and then I had to hand over my gift bag. It was kind of hard to let it go honestly, because I had poured my heart and soul into that thing. I had gathered things from Rushers ALL OVER THE WORLD to bring into it; letters, messages. And my story was in that bag. My thank you for saving my life. We were then told to grab a water bottle and head to the VIP lounge. ;) Yeah, we were special. We waited about an hour while we were all checked in, and then, we were briefed again, and then funneled to soundcheck.

PART 2: http://blessingind.blogspot.com/2013/06/part-2-sound-check.html
ALL PARTS: http://blessingind.blogspot.com/2013/06/i-met-big-time-rush-yesterday.html

I MET BIG TIME RUSH YESTERDAY!!!!

WHAT THE TITLE SAYS!!!!!! :D:D:D:D:D

OKAY. SO. I've had some time to think about this, and I think the best way to do it will to write about each experience separately. So as I write each part, I'll post a link here! :D SO HEEEEERE WE GO!!!!! :D

Part 1: Getting there and getting to soundcheck: http://blessingind.blogspot.com/2013/06/part-1-we-be-waitin.html
Part 2: Soundcheck and getting to meet and greet: http://blessingind.blogspot.com/2013/06/part-2-sound-check.html
Part 3: MEET AND GREET: http://blessingind.blogspot.com/2013/06/part-2-sound-check.html
Part 4: Shopping and chilling: http://blessingind.blogspot.com/2013/06/part-4-post-meet-and-greet-calm-down.html
Part 5: Opening acts: http://blessingind.blogspot.com/2013/07/part-5-katie-kopp-scale-of-approval.html
Part 6: MA BOYS: http://blessingind.blogspot.com/2013/07/part-6-best-concert-since-big-time.html
Part 7: Pictures!: http://blessingind.blogspot.com/2014/02/part-1-or-7-depending-on-where-youre.html

SHINY NEW PHONE AND POEM YAAAY!! :D:D

SO I HAS GOOD NEWS!

One, I SHOULD GET MY NEW PHONE TODAY!!! :D:D:D:D I have been waiting TWO YEARS for this to happen, since three new models have come out since I got my iPhone 3GS. I had wanted that and not a 4 at the time because of the shape of the 4 but that is not important. IT WAS IN FORT WORTH LAST NIGHT WHICH MEANS IT SHOULD COME TODAY!!!! :D:D:D:D:D

TWO: Things are annoying me here and I just remembered a poem I wrote a couple of weeks ago that kind of summed up my current frustrations. And I thought I would share it with you guys! :D Feel free to spread it around and share it, just please give me credit, okay?

And random third thing: I AM POSTING AGAIN ISN'T THIS GREAT??? :D
-Katie

The lie (Without the swearing)


There's no such thing as perfect. It's just a f***ing lie.

Just cuz you see it, doesn't mean you should believe it.

Everyone has their secrets, their scars and a past.

Yet they hide it all behind a smile as their mask.

I'm not a size 0, my hair will always end up a mess. But I don't give a f***, I don't want to pretend.

But when I try to embrace it, I'm a disappointment in your eyes.

You don't seem to get that perfection is just a murderous lie.

It starves you, it purges, It puts a blade to a body and scars on the skin.

And if you believe it long enough, it will eat you alive. Sometimes it even takes a life.

Do still like that word? Still expect that standard? Then get the f*** out, Cuz I'm not gonna waver.

I'll stand tall, and fight your shallow lie. Because I've been scarred by that word for the rest of my life.

lack of updates! :P

I know I need to update....

But I lack inspiration at the moment. PLUS I'm trying to get ready for THE BEST DAMN NIGHT OF MY LIFE SATURDAY!!!! So yeah, just hang in there, and Saturday will be TOTALLY worth it, I promise. :)

-Katie

short update

I know I haven't put up anything in a really long time.

But I kinda think it's better to put quality over quantity. Besides, if I put a really long post up I'd depress everyone. :/ I'll explain later.

WHY AM I LISTENING TO DISCO BLOODBATH BOOGIE FEVER BY ALICE COOPER I'M GONNA GET NIGHTMARES!!! O_O

I scare at really stupid things.... Like end credits to little kids shows. And Disney villans. And this Alice Cooper song.... WHICH MY DAD HAS ON HIS PHONE BECAUSE- Just nevermind.

AND THAT IS WHY I WILL WAIT UNTIL I HAVE MY THOUGHTS MORE COMPOSED BEFORE I PUT SOMETHING REAL UP KBAI :D
-Katie

I AM ALIVE I PROMISE! :P

I KNOW I KNOW I KNOW I KNOW.

I have not posted ANYTHING this weekend. Or has it been longer? :/ EITHER WAY IT'S BEEN WAYY TOO LONG. Or maybe you guys are cool with a lack of content. :P

UGHHHHHH I HAVE VACATION BIBLE SCHOOL TOMORROW WHICH MEANS I HAVE TO GET UP EARLY BLEHHH. :((( I am in NO WAY a morning person anymore. :P I was (Or at least I had to be one) when I was working and WORKING IS A VERY SENSITIVE TOPIC RIGHT NOW DON'T TOUCH ME OKAY??? :P

Sorry. I'm just REALLY stressed right now. :/ TOO MUCH TO DO NOT ENOUGH TIME WEHHHH :P I'm tired in case it wasn't noticeable... BUT! I have to go back to the mall today. I HOPE. Whatevs. BTR makes everything better.... WELL, BIG TIME RUSH AND COFFEE. xD

I'm just gonna stop before I completely confuse you guys. TIME TO GET TO WORK.
-Katie

:/

I think yesterday could have gone better in about thirteen different ways.

Or every way. I just chose thirteen to be kinda drastic and exaggerate. :P THAT is good writing- no. Just no. xD

Okay yeah, yesterday just kinda sucked. I let the world and all my pressures get to me, and I just kinda went over the edge. NOT A RELAPSE THOUGH. Just.... *shudders* I'm trying to block it from my mind, but it was a full blown panic attack from everything I kept thinking about and was stressed about and then Nathan had a huge rage. And EVERYONE (Meaning all the adults) had to step in to calm him down. :/

Well anyways, THE BEST PART OF YESTERDAY THOUGH WAS THAT IT WAS THURSDAY AND THAT MEANT NEW BIG TIME RUSH SO LET'S REVIEW HOW AWESOME IT WAS SHALL WE???? :D

And that was what I was trying to calm down for and helped me finish calming down. Especially when the confetti falling video that was online was part of the show. :D Oh yeah, SPOILER ALERTS. xD

Anyways, IT WAS THAT TIME AGAIN; IT WAS TIME FOR THE DAY OF PRANKS. But Mama Knight and all the adults were out to stop it forever!!! D: So it was kids (since last year it was a fight to get the girls in and so therefore girls were allowed to play this time xD JUST WATCH THE LAST ONE OKAY???) Versus adults and the future of the day of pranks was at stake, because the adults wanted to take it away FOREVER!!!! D:

And apparently Logan set a new record for pranking himself out. Like he always does. xD OH LOGAN! :P I have no life, I know. xD CONFETTI GUNS, BLANKET JAMES, PRANKSTA GANSTA I JUST ASDHFHJKKHLKJDSFTHLRKWT'ADFSK; OKAY???? xD

And I can honestly tell you, that sometimes you literally just have to say, "Na Na Na!" It can make all the difference. And help you calm down. So does listening to that BTR song... :P AND NEXT WEEK IS VROOM VROOMS AND MOTOR BIKES AND JUST IDEK MAN!!!! xD Ugh, but today is kinda packed. I have to go help set up for Vacation Bible School WHICH STARTS ON MONDAY (I'm where I keep getting told I would be the best). AND I HAVE TO BE THERE AT TWICE AS EARLY AS EVERYONE ELSE CUZ OF WHERE NATHAN IS. -_- So VBS set up, then mall to go job hunting (Woohoo. -____-*), and then social time, which is kinda the whole point of Fridays. And my mom is coming to take- AW CRAP I STILL HAVE THE MEMORY CARD STUCK IN THE COMPUTER!!!!! D:

I gotta go do stuff guys! Sorry for the all over blog, tomorrow will be better (If I post), I promise! :)
-Katie

Ughhh

I just posted this in the wrong blog lol. :P

Anyways, Things are not really going my way right now. Big shock. -_- So why is my life sucking right now? Job, CD, people not answering me. >:(

Whatever. I have an awesome dad who downloaded 24/seven for me in the car to listen to since I forgot it. :) I get to see my friends. :) I get to go swimming! Wait. I can't swim, nor so I really enjoy wearing a swimsuit. :/ WHATEVER I DON'T REALLY CARE ABOUT ANYTHING AT THIS POINT.


I'm not a very good mood.... Whatever. I'm alone on a computer, so I can write in peace and do what I want without getting caught. :P
ALL DAY EVERY DAY IS A HOLIDAY AND WE'RE ALRIGHT 24/SEVEN SO GO BUY THE ALBUM KBYE :P
-Katie

Good morning! :D

I CANNOT STOP LISTENING TO 24/SEVEN OKAY?????

I'm just like ASDFGHJKLH;LS;DGF';PRWYTIUOHNGKJLF And then Kendall's latest Vine.... xD It has been a good morning. :P

OH! And head over to my twitter and check out some of the imagines I've been writing! :) @Cupcakerusher17 What else...?

Oh, I may not be going to a pool party today! :/ I'm excited and terrified all at once.. lol. whatever. :P

WATCH KENDALL'S LATEST VINE OKAY IT'S JUST I CAN'T EVEN THE BOY IS CRAZY.
-Katie

LLIVE YOUR LIFE 24/SEVEN!!!!!!!! :D

I JUST CAN'T I AM HAVING FEELS

And feels gone. -_- I'll save my rant about the lie that is perfection for tomorrow, BECAUSE TODAY IS BIG TIME RUSH AND I JUST

Sorry :P I WARNED YOU EARLIER I HAVE HAD TWO HOURS OF SLEEP. Although I think my blogs are slightly more interesting when I'm slap happy... Hmm... ANYWAYS, IF YOU DID NOT BUY IT STOP READING AND GO DO IT. GET IT ON ITUNES, AT THE STORE, BOTH. GET MULTIPLE COPIES AND THEN GO SPREAD THE WORD!!!!! :D:D:D:D:D:D

And now, let us go over EVERYTHING about this amazing CD!

Now I was bouncing off the walls waiting for my dad to come home so I could go get it. And I completely freaked out in the store and embarrassed him . :P THE CASHIER WAS ON MY SIDE HE IS A SECRET RUSHER HE SAID SOMETHING ABOUT DOING IT UP BIG TIME. And THAT is why Target is better than Walmart, who I am boycotting. xD DON'T ASK OKAY?

SO I PICKED IT UP. I TOOK PICTURES. I SMELLED IT. IT SMELLED LIKE PERFECTION AND PLASTIC. YES, I AM AWARE OF THE ALL CAPS. NO, I DON'T CARE. :D

So we get in the car and I immediately attack the wrapping. I GOT IT OPENED BEFORE WE GOT HOME GUYS. And then my dad said Elevate sucks. -_- ELEVATE IS THE REASON I AM ALIVE THANK YOU. WHATEVER BACK TO THE POINT.

Well, I'm not sure this has a point, but.... OH WEEEEELL!!!! :P So I get home, everyone says they're happy I got it. AND I RUN RIGHT UPSTAIRS AND PUT IT ON THE COMPUTER, BECAUSE IT IS JUST PERFECT. It's a much more, chill, dubstep kinda album, but like, just- I'M NOT EVEN GONNA TRY AND EXPLAIN GO FIND OUT FOR YOURSELF!!!!!!! :D

And then I wanted to attack my computer with a mallet, an ax, and dynamite. ALL BECAUSE ITUNES IS FUCKING STUPID AND WANTS TO ERASE EVERYTHING ON MY PHONE TO PUT ANYTHING ON IT. -_- Don't ask, I'll save that for tomorrow too.... AND I HAVE TURNED ON THIS ALBUM EVERY TIME I WANNA JUST BREAK DOWN TODAY. I blame the fucking lie that some people in my life seem to expect from us and is intolerant and- I just need to stop, I'm ruining this blog.

GO BUY IT! OH WAIT! The hard copy only has ten songs, the rest you have to buy on iTunes. -_- AND THEY RUINED LOVE ME AGAIN IT WAS A GOOD CLUB SONG AND IT GOT TURNED INTO A PATHETIC MAKE UP SONG. =_= Whatever!!! :P

GO NOW AND BUY IT AND SMELL IT AND LISTEN AND FALL IN LOVE WITH IT AND SPREAD THE WORD!!!! :D
-Katie

Some random song lyrics from 24/Seven

"You think I'm crazy and it's true; I'm crazy for you."

"Cuz she knows that I'm falling fast; I'll never let her go."

"Cuz your heart calling, feels like confetti falling."

Big Time Rush can make all the bad thoughts go away... make me fall in love all over again.... And make me feel at least pretty, if only for a few minutes. :)

Tired! :D

Guys I plan to go crazy about the album today.

But I got like two hours of sleep last night, and I'm about ready to break down and cry because iTunes wants to ruin my life pretty much (Not really, but I'll explain later). Let me take a nap and I'll come back later today or tonight and make a really awesome post, K? :)

THANK YOU FOR YOUR PATIENCE, IT WILL BE WELL REWARDED.
-Katie

24/SEVEN TOMORROW OMG

GUYS.

I need you to listen to me very carefully, because the topics in this blog, while relating to fangirling and Big Time Rush, ARE EXTREMELY IMPORTANT TO ME AT LEAST SO JUST HUMOR ME OR CLICK HERE FOR SOMETHING MORE ENTERTAINING:

Now then, thank you for reading. As you probably know, I am a Rusher. In English that means I am obsessed with the band, "Big Time Rush." I have a long backstory that's pretty much summed up between late August and the month of September in this blog. But that is completely beside the point.

The point is, their third album is coming out tomorrow; It's called "24/seven." And this album is HUGE. It may or may not be their last album as a band, and either way we've waited a long time for this. The boys have never gotten a platinum album, and that's a big dream of theirs. To get it to platinum, we need EVERYONE, fans, people on the fence, people who don't even care to buy it. Platinum means that it has sold over one million copies.

So I'm making a call for action; I don't care what you do with it; if you buy it and give it away, throw it out, torture a brainless 1 Direction fan, feed it to a robot, WHATEVER. Just buy it! Please? If you don't have money, ask someone to buy it for you! Or, if no one will do that, wait and buy it later! Or just don't buy it and make me sad. :(

I know this is a stupid thing to ask for. I know some of you may not even care about it. But you cared enough to read this far! :) It's up to you, but I think you will really like it. Just think about it, okay? :) I really need to post about something OTHER than BTR, but I can't think of anything right now, so I'll come back later, okay? :)

Bye guys!
-Katie

Another James blog! :D

Hmm....

Welp, I think for one, TIME FOR ANOTHER JAMES BLOG. THIS: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MDWznyfYYGE&feature=youtu.be

I cannot say it enough; THAT BOY HAS IT, HE HAS TALENT INSIDE HIS FREAKIN DNA. And I'm hoping enough people share this blog he'll read it? :) I CAN DREAM ALRIGHT?!?!?!?!?!

So in OTHER NEWS..... Expect an awesome video on youtube from moi today. ;) I'll past the link here when I get up:

What else? Hmm.... I WILL HAVE A COSTUME AND A T-SHIRT PILLOW BY THE END OF THIS WEEK COME HELL OR HIGH WATER. :D

I'm running on no more than six hours of sleep at the most, so I will post something that makes sense later, okay? :)

BAI GUISE! :D
-Katie

Everything you have missed! :D

I wrote two other posts.

But then I decided it was too much information that I'm pretty sure shouldn't be out there. So I am gonna redo it and tell you all about how this week sucked! :D *Extreme sarcasm was just used*

SUCKY THING #1: Well let's start with Monday night! My mom was trying to let the dog out and she has pretty much ruined her knee. And she has been immobile and- I mean this in the most non-hurtful way- completely useless. She hurts too much to do anything and nothing helps her pain go away. -.-

SUCKY THING #2: Ugh. I don't even know how or where to begin with all of this. So the first thing I do every morning is check my email. And Tumblr sent me one that said my ex-best-friend now followed me. Why does that suck? Because... It's really complicated alright? But then it was taken back, and I was pretty much an indirect cyber bully and I hate myself for doing it. :'(

SUCKY THING #3: So Tuesday comes and I decide to reach out to her myself. That could not have backfired more. She basically said I was the cause of all her demons, a lot of which I think I brought to her attention. She told me I was the reason for her scars.... She's as broken as I was guys. And even if she hates me, I don't hate her. I cried for her. I'm so scared for her, and I hurt because she's hurting. Even if we don't talk, eight years of friendship does not go away. even if you hate each other, you still care about each other. And I always will.

REASON SUCKY NUMBER THREE WAS ALSO A GOOD THING: One, we know and we're gonna call her mom. Two, it showed how strong I have become. I never once thought of cutting, even though she broke my heart again. Oh, and THREE WHOLE MONTHS STRONG GUYS!!!! :D

SUCKY THING #4: Thursday. Just.... NINE AND A HALF HOURS WAITING IN THE ER FOR MY MOM. Five of them were spent just waiting to be seen by the doctor, then the rest were spent waiting for an x-ray that pretty much showed they couldn't help at all!!! AND I MISSED WHAT WAS PROBABLY THE MOST IMPORTANT EPISODE OF BIG TIME RUSH BECAUSE THE DAMN HOSPITAL DIDN'T GET NICK AND THE CHARGE NURSE WAS A BITCH ABOUT THE OTHER GIRL LOOKING FOR IT. And the moral of that story is.... ALWAYS HAVE INSURANCE SO YOU DON'T HAVE TO GO THE COMMUNITY HOSPITAL AND GO THROUGH WHAT I DID.

SUCKY THING #5: Nathan is out of school. Just.... fighting. endless fights about the stupidest fucking things!!!! And I get to put up with it AAAALL summer. Lucky me. -__-

SUCKY THING #6: On top of all the shit with Nathan yesterday, we had to get the whole house clean cuz my grandparents were coming home and I was freaking out.

SUCKY THING #7: I can handle the drama this morning. But what I can't handle is the fact that I needed the laptop all charged up and it only had 50%!!!!!! And that drained super quick too. D:

So this week sucked. :( BUT NEXT WEEK WON'T BECAUSE IT IS ALBUM RELEASE WEEK SO MY FANDOM IS GONNA GO WILD. I LOVE when my fandom goes wild. ;D I don't know where I'd be without them...

OH AND THANKS FOR GETTING THIS BLOG OVER 3,100 VIEWS WHILE I WAS GONE!!!!!!! :D:D:D:D

And now to write. Peace!
-Katie

I really hope you're reading this...

I DON'T HATE YOU.

I know; I've said some really mean things. I've said some things that have hurt you the same way I was hurting. And I AM MORE SORRY THAN YOU WILL EVER KNOW ABOUT IT.

I NEVER meant to hurt you! I was confused and angry. Because you told me I wasn't supposed to talk to you, yet you were trying to and I didn't understand. My mom told me it was your mom who cut us off. And I didn't think it would hurt you as much as it did me. I never EVER wanted or intended you to find Ana OR Mia or to start down the destructive path I was on. And I may never forgive myself for it. But I'm so scared and worried for you now.

I'm scared you'll try and do what I did, or worse. And if you died.... I'd be devastated. I'd never forgive myself. I don't know what I would do knowing I never got to say I'm sorry, or I love you and only want the best for you. Suddenly we've traded places; I'm the one who has everything while you don't seem to have anything. Not a shoulder to lean on and cry; not a friend to help you through. I could have relapsed again last night after what you said but I didn't. I'm stronger, and within that strength I'm beyond terrified for you. I feel like that song by Demi Lovato, "Fix A Heart."

You may not be reading this, but if you are, I AM here and I DO care and I only want you to find the peace and strength I have. But above all, I wanted to give you a phone number. It's one that saved my life TWICE. It's 1-800-273-TALK PLEASE promise me if you don't see a point in going on you will call it? I didn't one day, but I called that number and it made me think before I did anything. PLEASE.

I know you're angry and hurt. I am too. But please just try. Please?

-Katie

WHY YOU LEAVE ME?!?!?! :'(

Dis make me sad....

BUT! In other news, I hath broached- oh wait I can't post that here. :3 Well.... yeah. people know stuff now and they're cool with it. kind of. I think. OH WELL!!!! XD

ANYWAYS, my family (IE, my mom, dad, and My Blessing) is just..... asdfhkjll;lkj. BUT I AM AWAY FROM IT ALL RIGHT NOW SO THAT COUNTS FOR SOMETHING RIGHT??????? -____- This has not been a very good weekend. At least I get to be here, and have that time with someone.....

I just wish it was safe to trade numbers.... BUT LET'S BE HAPPY AND REMEMBER THAT I START CRAZY WORK ON MY BANDANA MAN COSTUME THIS WEEK AND I'M SKINNY AGAIN!!!!!! :D:D:D:D:D:D

And I think the confetti falling video is our preview for next week. :P WATCH: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ix9_Jvt-UYU And that was mood swings with Katie! Tune in next time when she goes from the newly recognized feeling of fangirling to bliss! xD

Don't look at me. :P
-Katie

I am here let's start the partayyyy xD

I CAN EXPLAIN MY ABSENCE!!!!

My grandfather left for Florida yesterday, and he took the laptop with him. -.- SO THEREFORE I CANNOT DO ANYTHING IF IT'S NOT COMPATIBLE WITH MY PHONE!!! D:

But I am here now, so let's do this! :D Okay, so first off, STOP FREAKING OUT THERE WILL BE A NEW BIG TIME RUSH EPISODE NEXT WEEK COME HELL OR HIGH WATER!!!!!!!! :))))

Second: THIS WEEK WAS..... WEIRD. xD Yeah, just go watch it. AND I FINALLY UNDERSTAND CARLITA AND SHE CANNOT WALK IN HEELS!!! xD xD

Third, and possibly the most important, THIS: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ix9_Jvt-UYU ASDFGHJK;LFHDKJLFSDGHJKL OKAY???? :D:D:D:D

TWO WEEKS FROM ALBUM RELEASE I AM SCREAMING OKAY!!!!! :D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D

Sorry for spazzing, but, ya know, BIG TIME RUSH MAKES ME CRAZY!!!!! Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee :D

Okay so I ALSO reapplied for my old job again. -_- I'm desperate at this point though....

WELP I GOTTA GOOOO SO BYE GUYS!!! xD
-Katie