Remember that story I told the world before I did my cover back in April?
And if you didn't watch it, or don't remember, click here! :D http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_bnBv6Zlw4A Yeahhh, well I have to postpone my VERY IMPORTANT PLANS UNTIL NINE AT LEAST and go to church tonight. -_- I bet you are wondering why I'm doing it if I really don't want to. Well, to be perfectly blunt, I'll never hear the end of it if I don't go.
The choir director's mother is in the hospital, and we (Me and my grandmother) went to visit her last night and I was pretty much begged and told I had to go tonight, no matter what happened to my self-esteem in the process! Fun huh? -_-
It's really complicated. I really don't feel like explaining, but basically it was a non-existent love triangle that ended with three broken hearts and me leaving choir, all thanks to a stupid boy and a blonde girl who I hate for no good reason. :( She's older and smarter and prettier and more successful and got the boy I had accidentally fallen in love with to fall in love with her and treat me like a kid. So yeah. And every time she and the boy show up I usually end up emotional and bitter. and it seems are voices are so alike we always have to sit together! -_-
And I'm not even starting on how the choir director "Lost all this weight and I should do what she's done!" Woman please, do the words "eating disorder" mean nothing to you? I am happy with my body right now and calling me fat and telling me that just destroys what little confidence I currently possess. And I have scars now. Last time I had cuts. Scars. Yet another insecurity. But then again....
"You gotta believe in me, even if you can't see me there..." - You're Not Alone, Elevate
"You've got a heart of gold, a perfect original... I would do anything to make you smile." - Covergirl, Elevate
"You're not gonna be invisible." - Invisible, Elevate
"But that pretty face don't compare to what's inside." - Crazy for U, 24/Seven
"When you know some stupid boy's just trying to break your heart, don't even play his games. Get us and see how beautiful you are; baby just walk away." - Na Na Na, 24/Seven Deluxe edition (iTunes only)
So.... maybe I can do this? I don't want to in any way shape or form, but I don't really have a say in it at this point. I have to put off my friends for an extra two hours at least all to save myself from getting nit picked and hearing the complaints and how "I think you should go to church because your reasons for not going are silly." And how "He's just a boy he doesn't mean anything." NO LADY HE WAS MY FIRST LOVE AND HEARTBREAK AND SHE'S NO GOOD FOR MY SELF-ESTEEM. Sigh. That's what pink ink and arms are for; song lyrics to get you through the day. AND I AM NOT TAKING MY BRACELETS OFF. XP Now, let's try and make this blog a little happier, shall we? :) Like how I got to go to the mall yesterday? :D
Yeah, we went all the way to Frisco too! :D The one there is sooooo much better than the two here. :P Oh my gosh okay so we're trying to find a place to park and it's like a freakin war zone! People were stealing other peoples spots and making freakishly sharp turns and it was just.... crazy. So we finally get the car parked and my dad and Patrick go one way and I go a different way. I nearly got run over by people multiple times because skinny walk-ways and big crowds (Note to self; don't go to the mall at four in the afternoon on a Saturday afternoon in the summertime again. :P). There really wasn't much that caught my eye, but when I went in to Abercrombie and Fitch....
Yep. xD FOX IS SO FAMOUS. And James must really trust Halston if he let her do a photoshoot with him. Unless he was behind the camera... xD That about wraps up this blog. I DON'T WANNA LEAVE!!!! D: Whatever.
It's not like I haven't been submitted to this mess before....
-Katie
And if you didn't watch it, or don't remember, click here! :D http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_bnBv6Zlw4A Yeahhh, well I have to postpone my VERY IMPORTANT PLANS UNTIL NINE AT LEAST and go to church tonight. -_- I bet you are wondering why I'm doing it if I really don't want to. Well, to be perfectly blunt, I'll never hear the end of it if I don't go.
The choir director's mother is in the hospital, and we (Me and my grandmother) went to visit her last night and I was pretty much begged and told I had to go tonight, no matter what happened to my self-esteem in the process! Fun huh? -_-
It's really complicated. I really don't feel like explaining, but basically it was a non-existent love triangle that ended with three broken hearts and me leaving choir, all thanks to a stupid boy and a blonde girl who I hate for no good reason. :( She's older and smarter and prettier and more successful and got the boy I had accidentally fallen in love with to fall in love with her and treat me like a kid. So yeah. And every time she and the boy show up I usually end up emotional and bitter. and it seems are voices are so alike we always have to sit together! -_-
And I'm not even starting on how the choir director "Lost all this weight and I should do what she's done!" Woman please, do the words "eating disorder" mean nothing to you? I am happy with my body right now and calling me fat and telling me that just destroys what little confidence I currently possess. And I have scars now. Last time I had cuts. Scars. Yet another insecurity. But then again....
"You gotta believe in me, even if you can't see me there..." - You're Not Alone, Elevate
"You've got a heart of gold, a perfect original... I would do anything to make you smile." - Covergirl, Elevate
"You're not gonna be invisible." - Invisible, Elevate
"But that pretty face don't compare to what's inside." - Crazy for U, 24/Seven
"When you know some stupid boy's just trying to break your heart, don't even play his games. Get us and see how beautiful you are; baby just walk away." - Na Na Na, 24/Seven Deluxe edition (iTunes only)
So.... maybe I can do this? I don't want to in any way shape or form, but I don't really have a say in it at this point. I have to put off my friends for an extra two hours at least all to save myself from getting nit picked and hearing the complaints and how "I think you should go to church because your reasons for not going are silly." And how "He's just a boy he doesn't mean anything." NO LADY HE WAS MY FIRST LOVE AND HEARTBREAK AND SHE'S NO GOOD FOR MY SELF-ESTEEM. Sigh. That's what pink ink and arms are for; song lyrics to get you through the day. AND I AM NOT TAKING MY BRACELETS OFF. XP Now, let's try and make this blog a little happier, shall we? :) Like how I got to go to the mall yesterday? :D
Yeah, we went all the way to Frisco too! :D The one there is sooooo much better than the two here. :P Oh my gosh okay so we're trying to find a place to park and it's like a freakin war zone! People were stealing other peoples spots and making freakishly sharp turns and it was just.... crazy. So we finally get the car parked and my dad and Patrick go one way and I go a different way. I nearly got run over by people multiple times because skinny walk-ways and big crowds (Note to self; don't go to the mall at four in the afternoon on a Saturday afternoon in the summertime again. :P). There really wasn't much that caught my eye, but when I went in to Abercrombie and Fitch....
Yep. xD FOX IS SO FAMOUS. And James must really trust Halston if he let her do a photoshoot with him. Unless he was behind the camera... xD That about wraps up this blog. I DON'T WANNA LEAVE!!!! D: Whatever.
It's not like I haven't been submitted to this mess before....
-Katie
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