OH MY JESUS GUYS!!!!!!!!

JAMES WAS SO FUCKING CLOSE TO GOING HOME TONIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Okay so a LOT of stuff happened on DWTS tonight but first, JAMES' DANCE HERE. Now that you know that, OMFG RIGHT??????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????? And then the guys were there and all of twitter was freaking out so ahhhhh!!! :) But then like he got THE EXACT SAME SCORES HE GOT LAST WEEK. -___________- FUCK YOU LENN- Okay no, but like.... he seemed especially grumpy tonight. -.-

But then like everyone was getting his wrath so James wasn't TOO in trouble....  But like everyone was either injured already or got injured tonight. :o Like Meryl and Maks were cracking things in rehearsal, DANICA FRACTURED A FUCKING RIB AND STILL DANCED, and then Amy hurt her back and no one knows whether she will return or not. I have mixed feelings about that but first, let us realize WE HAVE WEEDED OUT ALL THE TRULY TERRIBLE/AWKWARD/PEOPLE WHO CAN'T DANCE CONTESTANTS. Now shit just got real!

But yeah on the one hand if James doesn't win I'd want Amy to, because she has a lot of talent and if she doesn't then Meryl will but at the same time if she has to withdraw, then that means we have another week to get James up the leader board so I'm kinda like torn. :/ Anyways, VOTE YOUR ASS OFF NEXT WEEK.

Use facebook, the abc.com website, and your phone to call in!!!! AND ON THE OFF CHANCE THAT JAMES SOMEHOW SEES THIS: Dude, you're KILLER in every aspect of your feet. You're trying, but if you focus really hard on that, you have a strong chance. I used to dance myself and footwork is EVERYTHING. You've got the sexy factor, your upper body work is AMAZING, just work on your feet and you've got this man. :)

AND THAT IS ALL!!!! Ne-Ne went home, JAMES IS ON THE BOTTOM OF THE LEADERBOARD (OMFG NO I DO NOT WANT TO GO THROUGH WHAT I DID TONIGHT AGAIN) SO FUCKING VOTE OKAY???????

Kthanxluvubaiiiiii. :P

Sincerely,
-Katie

4 things

1: I'm getting worse.

2: I'm still scared to be on the internet

3: It still amazes me how happy tumblr can make me

4: Kendall's hair is fluffy. and I want to touch it. :P

BONUS THING: I know that last comment sounds like Benji from "worst cooks in America." BUT I REGRET NOTHING!!!! xD

THAT IS ALL!

Sincerely,
-Katie

A few things

Sooo.....

Yeah um, I didn't MEAN to ignore my blog all April.... but the break here is made up for on Youtube. :/ I've got that started up again. Feel free to check it out! :D I'm not gonna give you the link HERE though. I've.... got a different problem and I'm trying to protect myself from him.

Yes HE is back. -__________- IF YOU ARE READING THIS FUCK OFF DOUCHE BAG. If you EVER loved me, you would have stopped a long time ago. You know exactly what you are doing, but so do I. And if you don't stop I WILL press charges.

If you are not him, then know that I'm gonna be vague and I'm not gonna post a lot of links to me on other places. The less some people know, the better. I've posted too much in other blogs/videos/tweets to go back and delete them all, but just don't hate me for not shamelessly plugging myself okay?

That said, I'm.... I'm falling. Kind of. For someone. But I'm scared. I'm really really REALLY scared. After what happened last time, I'm scared to even open myself up to the idea of something. I'm scared of getting hurt again. And I'm scared of getting harassed if this ends badly. And it will end at some point. But I'm just scared. I'm trying to be open but it's hard, ESPECIALLY with everything recently. I've got the pattern down. Once every three weeks, usually in the afternoon or evening, and I'm usually super happy when they come in. And then I spend the next day curled up in my bed, scared, depressed, and just regretting everything. But that's no way to live life....

Oh and JAMES IS ON BOTTOM AT THE MOMENT!!!!!!!!!! D:D:D:D:D:D:D: WE'VE GOT TO VOTE OUR ASSES OFF ON MONDAY OKAY?????????????? Otherwise I'm gonna cry and then I'm gonna make a video about him getting sent home and I will cry there too. YOU DO NOT WANT TO SEE ME CRY OKAY?????????????

So yeah. Posts here and uploads on youtube are gonna be few and far between for a while. Just for my safety. But I'll still be around and I'll TRY and post once a week, okay? :)

Love y'all and thanks for being so supportive! <3 p="">
Sincerely,
-Katie

I'm sick. :(

And my mom won't let me touch anything. -.-

It's making me sad because I want the computer but she won't let me touch it. >:( anyways, my throat is on fire and I had a James/Doctor Who dream with me and Patrick and a zombie apocalypse sort of.

Oh, and SPOILER ALERT HERE!!! Yes we're gonna gush about Dancing with the Stars because OMFG GUYS!!!!!!!! Soooo many shockers last night. Like, seriously, it was like something out of a fan-fiction. O.o

Soooooo first off, JAMES GOT A FREAKING FORTY OH MY GOD!!!!!! :D:D:D:D:D:D and they mentioned Hannah and it was so cute!!! :') and to top it all off, CODY SIMPSON WAS SENT HOME!!!!! :O I did NOT see that one coming. He didn't. NO ONE DID. I don't even think he did!! I seriously thought his fandom would put him through!!! But they didn't.

So yeah. Without the fandom competition, I think James has a real shot at winning this. :) AND THE HOST STILL ANNOYS THE CRAP OUT OF ME BUT OH WELL.

So yeah, WE GOTTA VOTE LIKE MAD GUYS!!! We've weeded out almost all the easy people, IT'S GETTING SERIOUS NOW.

I'm gonna continue being miserable and wishing my throat wasn't on fire. Baiiii!

Sincerely,
-Katie

PROM PHOTOS!!!!! :D

If you want a recap of that night, click HERE. Otherwise, enjoy the pics! :)

-Katie

Random blabber. :P

FIRST OFF: Shut up and watch this. :P

Yes, isn't my life so interesting?! :P Not when I can't take the iPad out of the house. BUT! Fear not lovelies! My mom let me put the app I was filming with on her phone, so with any luck my vlog will be much more interesting today! :)

Fingers crossed anyways. So yeah, I have hardly anything to do today, but I'll film it. OH! And interesting (And irritating) conundrum fell in my lap last night. What was it? How I'm getting TO prom. :/

Idk man I'm sleepy....

Sincerely,
-Katie

I DIDN'T WATCH DWTS LAST NIGHT!!!! D'X

That was a really lame crying emote I know. :P

BUT I DIDN'T GET TO WATCH PAST JAMES!!!! D: Things got really crazy really quickly around here and as a result, I didn't get to watch past James. :/ BUT JAMES WAS FREAKING AWESOME AS ALWAYS!!!! :D But then the host lady WAAAAAY overstepped her bounds and said, "Come on just tell us, are you dating?! I want a dancing with the stars baby!"

NO BITCH YOUR JOB IS TO FOCUS ON THE DANCERS AND THEIR DANCES NOT INVADE THEIR PERSONAL LIVES. Ugh, I knew they were gonna do this all season. -_______- I REALLY JUST WANT TO SEE HIM DANCE. Ugh, but yeah. :P

I'd post the video but I CAN'T FIND ONE WITH HOW HE PREPPED FOR HIS DANCE WITH HIS NEW PARTNER. D: Youtube, WHY YOU FAIL ME BRAH?! Lol, but yeah, that's about all I got. I'm going shopping when my mom gets home, and then I have youth group tonight, so same old same old. :)

AND MAKE SURE YOU'RE SUBSCRIBED TO MY YOUTUBE CHANNEL I GONNA BE DOING A HAUL OF WHAT I BOUGHT TODAY SOON. :D

K baiiii! :P

Sincerely,
-Katie

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Feeling good!

I feel TONS better.

Idk what it was. Although maybe it has something to do with spending 90% of the day in bed wallowing in self pity. :P Idk man.

ANYWAYS! I got back on Youtube last night! :D Well I mean I waste half my day on there, BUT I ACTUALLY UPLOADED SOMETHING! :D Check it out HERE. So.... yeah. Go subscribe! Comment! All of that jazz! :P But yeah, I'm gonna TRY and get my old iPhone to cooperate with iTunes and see what I can do to knit the video clips I filmed on my phone today on here and make some sort of professional-looking vlog. :P

So yeah gonna go order my Date's bouteinere tonight and then go shopping tomorrow! :D We're gonna get the last couple of things we need for prom, which includes (But is not limited to); jewelry, a tiara (I'm gonna be my own prom queen! :), lip gloss (I DESPISE lipstick), and maybe shapewear. Oh, and ice cream if I can convince my mom. :P

I don't know why but I've been craving soft-serve ice cream for like, EVER (Meaning about a month or so :P). Although that's KIND OF what started everything yesterday.... idk.

My kitchen smells good and Im'ma go do other stupid stuff so baiiiiii!!! :P

sincerely,
-Katie

RANT ABOUT MY LIFE ATM

Ya know those old posts where I was depressed and just like FML?

Yeah well I'm back to that place. Soooooo much shit has gone down and I really don't care anymore. I just ache. Like two years ago, I was so depressed it physically hurt. I could feel the ache in my chest. Well that ache is back. So WHY all of a sudden am I depressed? How could I POSSIBLY be depressed when Prom is six days away? I'll tell you how; My little shit of a brother that's how.

He's done nothing but rage all weekend about EVERYTHING and my mom is stuttering again thanks to him. He fucked up my plans yesterday and today, and Ya know what? I'm really beginning to hate him and resent him. Now I know you're thinking, "How can you hate him? He's autistic and he can't help it." I have just one thing to say to you; STFU BITCH YOU HAVE NO IDEA WHAT I'VE BEEN THROUGH BECAUSE OF HIM AND PEOPLE LIKE YOU EMPOWER THIS IDEA IN HIS HEAD THAT HE SHOULD GET AWAY WITH EVERYTHING BECAUSE HE'S DISABLED!!!!!

And the worst part is I can't even cry or express my pain. I feel like it'd be selfish to do so and it wouldn't do me any good. So I sit, depressed with no way to cope, my chest aching.... Miserable. That's all I am. I seriously just wanna throw my hands in the air and do some really stupid shit but something keeps stopping me. I wonder... NO.

And so the war within me rages on. -____- Seriously, why is there only a finite amount of happiness avalible in the world and my share never lasts more than two weeks? Just... JADSKL;JASDF;LGHJDS;GLKHJK;L YA KNOW????????? Sigh.

I'll probably end up taking this down later, but two walks in the cold and rain deserves a little venting!! >:( And I really don't wanna bother anyone with it so... might as well tell the whole of the internet. Sigh.

Just leave me be...

Sincerely,
-Katie

9 DAYS TO PROMMMMM!!!!!!

So.....

Prom is in 9 days. Yeah. I'm totally not freaking out in the best possible way. Why would I be? It's just- OKAY I CAN'T I'M JUST SO FREAKING EXCITED I MIGHT EXPLODE!!!!! :D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D

Sooooo.... yeah. :P THIS IS ACTUALLY HAPPENING OMG. I remember when I bought the tickets back in January. Nathan was in the hospital and it was the one thing that made me happy. :) AND NOW I HAVE AN ESCORT AND I'M GETTING MY HAIR ALL DID AND HASDJKGLHSDFG :D:D:D:D:D

.....I really need to quit doing that. :P But yeah, I'm happy!!!!! ALSO: If you didn't read my last post, I SAW DIVERGENT!!! :D:D:D IT WAS SO GOOD OMG. It was very by the book, and I like my movies BY THE BOOK. Although they changed one thing in the end. Well actually they changed a couple of things, but I'm not telling. ;) It was really good.

Sooo.... that about catches you up! I'm doing prom errands and stuff today and I'm getting my dress tailored/altered tomorrow probably. OH! And James got all nines on Dancing with the stars on Monday! :D If you didn't get a chance to see it, click HERE. :)

See y'all next time!

Sincerely,
-Katie