ASSESSMENT OF DWTS FINALE

And can I just say FANGIRLS RULE THE FREAKING WORLD?!!?!?!?!?!?!

We got James the encore!!!! :D:D:D:D:D And neither of my two picks won. :P James didn't win, and neither did Amy, but to be honest it was quite a toss-up between Amy and Meryl. :P And Maks with his cute little "Russian babies" comment! :P

AND THEN ARIANA OMG SHE WAS PERF OKAY???????? I just typed like a fourteen year old. .....NO REGRETS WHATSOEVER!!! :P So yeah it's over now! :( I kind of feel like I did when Big Time Rush (The TV show, duh) ended. Like there's a hole in my life. :P Eh, I'll probably fill it with Dr. Who again....

Speaking of Dr. Who, the person who got me watching it.... Well.... I need a miracle. I'm so lost, and maybe I'm overthinking things, or listening to my insecurities. But... something just doesn't feel right. And I hate that I've lost that clarity of mind I had a year ago. I mean remember it?

I finally had the guts to stop following people on twitter who were just feeding my negativity, I quit my job because it wasn't helping my recovery... And I fell stupidly, dangerously in love with someone. A certain someone. Who is finally listening. Whom I am going to pointlessly thank because if they're really listening they'll never see. And even THAT is another example of the clarity of mind I'm missing.

Ugh. Maybe that's the answer as to why I can't think clearly; I'm scared of what might happen if I fall again. In any case I'm being told to give up the computer so we will have to continue this inner monologue later.

SO TO RECAP LAST NIGHT:

1. JAMES DID NOT WIN.
2. AMY DID NOT WIN.
3. MERYL WON AND TO BE HONEST IT WAS A TOSS-UP AT THAT POINT.
4. MAKS IS ADORABLE WHEN HE GOES ALL SOFT. :P

THAT IS ALL!!!

Sincerely,
-Katie

WHAT THE FUCK HAS HAPPENED???????

CAN SOMEONE TELL ME WHY JAMES WENT HOME LAST NIGHT INSTEAD OF CANDACE?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!

WHO THE HELL DIDN'T VOTE??????????????? LIKE SERIOUSLY, CANDACE SHOULDN'T BE COMPETING FOR THE TROPHY TONIGHT, JAMES SHOULD.

So in case that didn't give you an idea, James went home and I am BEYOND MAD about it!!!!!!! James has more dancing talent in his pinky than Candace does in her whole body! And I DON'T HATE HER. Let's make that clear right now. She just isn't as good as the other three were. And I respect her journey. I respect her confidence.

I also respect the fact that she's been through the nightmare of an eating disorder too. I RESPECT THAT. An eating disorder is hell for anyone going through it and for the people around that person. I think I've written about it before but maybe I need to write it again but that isn't what this is about. This about the fact that...... Well, I don't really know other than me just venting. But that isn't what we should be focusing on.

What we SHOULD be focusing on is the fact that he CAN still dance tonight if WE pool our tweets. All you have to do is use the hashtag, #encorejames. That's it. Retweet any of those that come across your TL. 

that's all I have for you today. Expect a better post tomorrow. In the meantime.... HIS LAST TWO DANCES.

Sincerely,

-Katie

Short, random, and lots of videos. :P

First off, RANDOM VIDEO TIME! :P

Second, FINALS TONIGHT OMG!!!!!!!!! :D:D:D:D:D:D:D MAKE SURE YOU VOTE!!! And click HERE if you don't know how and for an important message. :)

And that is about all I have I'm gonna go work on fanfic so baiiiiiiiiiiiiiii. :P

Sincerely,
-Katie

I SURVIVED WORK! :P

Okay LOOOOOTS of things has happened this week! :D

Well not really. Just some little stuff. And I can't even really tell you about it because *POLICIES* :P Buuuuuuut......

I CAN tell you about how AWESOME it is to be working again (Though my calves would argue that fact after running around the store for eight hours straight last night doing go-backs), and how, though I don't know EVERYTHING, I kind of feel like I belong.

Like, for once I don't feel like I'm a burden for asking questions. Like I CAN learn this stuff, that I CAN help people and like I CAN do this stuff. For once my boss has CONFIDENCE that I can succeed and that I DON'T need to be pulled aside and trained more in the back. I just... I feel like I belong.

And there are only two other places I have ever felt that way; at a BTR concert or online. And to feel that way AROUND real people and in real life... I just have so much faith in myself and this job. I feel... I guess I feel confident for once. I've forgotten what this feels like. I like it. :)

So yeah, Aside from the fact that I was doing go-backs all night last night (Eight hours, and after my break it made it so much harder to do :P), I love my job. ALSO! Check out my dad and my brothers are camping this weekend! :D I'm getting some much needed girl time with my mom tonight. Soo.... That's all I've got today! OH! And a Surprise on Youtube for y'all too. ;)

Baiiii!

Sincerely,
-Katie

OMG LAST NIGHT!!!!!

I DID NOT SEE ANYTHING THAT HAPPENED LAST NIGHT COMING!!!!

Okay so yesterday.... OMG yesterday... I still don't completely understand what happened on Dancing with the Stars. Or how what happened even came to be!!!! BUT FIRST, MAJOR MAJOR SPOILER ALERTS, AND WATCH JAMES' DANCES HERE (It's the video packet and both dances. Thanks to whoever uploaded it! :D)

Okay so to start off the night, we get word that CANDACE, of ALL PEOPLE, is safe. And at that point I was SERIOUSLY concerned that James WAS in the bottom and going home, because I thought THERE IS NO WAY ANY OF THE OLYMPIANS were in jeopardy. Turns out I was WAAAAAAY off!

ALL THREE of them were in jeopardy, which meant James was safe. I DO NOT UNDERSTAND HOW AMERICA VOTED LAST WEEK. And to be honest, I don't completely BELIEVE that's how the votes counted up. But then again I didn't count them, so.... But still, JAMES WAS SAFE!!!! :D AND his first dance got a forty!!! :D:D:D:D:D:D His second dance was suuuuuper cute too! :)

BUT THEN CAME THE MOST SHOCKING ELIMINATION SINCE CODY SIMPSON WAS SENT HOME. Charlie was sent home. After they announced that all three of the athletes were in jeopardy, I kinda saw that one coming. Everyone loves Amy and Meryl too much to send them home. Although, if I were to make a prediction, I think next Monday, Candace, James, and Amy are in bottom three. Meryl and Amy are close when it comes to how well they dance, but Meryl just has an edge. I think it's gonna end up being James and Candace when it gets to who's going home, and then Candace is going home.

I HAVE NOTHING AGAINST CANDACE. I actually admire her strength with everything she's been through, and my mom adores the fact that she's remained so conservative. But the fact of the matter is that James is just a better dancer than her. But these are only my thoughts. 

IN ANY CASE, VOTING IS STILL GOING ON!!! Click HERE to go cast your vote FOR JAMES on ABC.com. Facebook voting is still open too. Everyone was fighting to save Amy and Meryl last week so it is SUPER important we vote now. Also, yesterday there were some MAJOR storms here, and the power went out like, two hours before the show started. Feel free to watch THAT fiasco unfold on YouTube HERE.

So yeah, that's a recap of DWTS this week and my predictions for next week! :) WE MADE IT TO THE FINALS GUYS, IF WE WIN OUR FANDOM WILL BE NOTICED AND JAMES WILL BE SO HAPPY! :D lol, I'm just so proud right now. :)

Sincerely,

-Katie

Monday recap! :D

I realized I have not written to the general public in a while...

Sorry about that. But to be honest the last few posts were feelings I needed to get out. And I didn't know how else to do it. BUT! I am back now with a post for ALL my lovely readers! yay! :D

AND LET'S START WITH THE FACT THAT I HATE CARRIE ANN. X_X Yes, Dancing with the Stars was last night. SPOILERS AHEAD. Also, feel free to watch James' first dance HERE. And then watch his second one HERE. AND NO HE DID NOT GO HOME THANK GOD. We came SO CLOSE AGAIN THOUGH!!!!!!

Okay so we're not at the VERY BOTTOM of the leaderboard this week, BUT WE STILL HAVE TO VOTE OUR FREAKING ASSES OFF ON MONDAY. This is getting intense. Although, to comment on the whole bum sticking out thing; he kind of does, but then again Peta is shorter than he is. This is a problem me and my BF ran in to at dance lessons and prom, because our height gap was even bigger than theirs. I'm 5'4 and my BF is 6'3. Soo.... yeah. At least the height gap between Peta and James is smaller. But even when my BF would dance with me, he still stood up straight, and that's just what he's gonna have to do. Although my mom also said he may just have a big butt. :3 NOT SAYING ANYTHING ON THAT.

But seriously, I was kind of in shock after I realized Danica and Val were going home. It took a while to sink in. :P And then of course everything blew up once DWTS was over and I'm about at my edge with everyone. -_____- VOTE JAMES NEXT WEEK OR I WILL FIND YOU AND SEND YOU TO THE ISLE OF PERPETUAL TICKLING LIKE THEY DID IN THE VEGGIETALES VERSION OF ESTHER.

Also: I think I got a job yesterday! :) OH AND THE THING ABOUT MY YOUTUBE CHANNEL CAME THROUGH!!!!! :D So now I get to be a youtuber!!! :D:D:D:D:D:D Well, I still have to figure everything out, but yeah. :) All in all yesterday was okay. Aside from the fact that my pizza turned out to be a DISASTER. :P Watch all about that HERE.

So yeah, make sure to follow and I'll see y'all next week For another recap!  :P AND I STILL THINK CARRIE ANN IS BEING TOO HARD ON JAMES.

Sincerely,
-Katie

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A letter to a girl...

I dreamed about you last night.

I dreamed your mom finally caught you. You were in the bathroom throwing up when she did. I never got past that part, because then my dream launched in to my own mother catching me doing something.... Did she catch you today? Did she realize I was right? Are you going to get help? This isn't my business, but at the same time, I still worry about you. I still want the best for you. And I still love you. And I DO want to help you. I got through it too you know. I'm still in all the same places. My instagram name is still the same, this blog URL is the same... I'm here if you want. I always will be. But if you don't want to talk to me, that's okay too I guess. I've come to learn to live without you. I've never found anyone who could take your place. But at the same time I've still moved on.

I just want you to read this, and take hope in it. There are good days and bad days. There are still days when all I want to do is slice my arm off. There are still days when nothing could bring me down. Just have faith. Know things get better, okay Cass?

I love you.

Sincerely,
-Katie

Poem: Will you still love me?

Will you still love me when it all fades away?

When my wounds are fresh, when my ends are frayed?

Will you still love me when scars turn to wounds?

When I'm aching and bleeding, and so desperately need you?

Will you love me at my worst, when I tell you what he did?

How he hurt me and used me, and badgers me to no end?

Will you still love me when the day comes I won't eat?

When I hate every part of myself, and see things you'll never see?

Will you still love me when I ache, bleed, and scream?

When it's all washed away, will what you see now still be?

Will you still love me, even when things aren't so great?

You love me at my best, will you love me at my worst?

Will you still love me even when I scream their names?

When the lights go down and confetti falls, will you still trust that you're the one?

Will you still love me, even when I'm old and gray?

Or when it's two AM, and a baby screams, I pray,

That you'll still love me, through all the hoops, tears, and pain.

I pray that you'll still love me, and love me just the same.


Sincerely,
-Katie

Sometimes I'm really stupid.

Like I misunderstand someone trying to be sweet.

Although I think there was some misunderstandings on both parts. :) Point is I'm happy. And I also really want some carrot cake flavored whoopie pies. And the best part? THE RECIPE IS FROM COOKING LIGHT. Check it out HERE.

In other news, ARIANA GRANDE'S NEW SONG IS PERFECTION OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! If you haven't heard it yet, listen HERE. OMG RIGHT???????? I CANNOT STOP LISTENING TO IT. AND DANCING. Oh my God guys I need to MOVE. And sing. And scream.

So essentially I need to go to a concert. Preferably an Ariana Grande concert. :P But like it's kind of weird how often her songs just sum up my last relationship. Like.... it was Honeymoon Avenue that kinda convinced me to break up with a certain someone (Who's happy ass better not be reading this, TED), and then Problem kinda sums up how I feel about him now. I just.... idk. He's in my head too much lately.

And I don't like that. GET OUT. OUT OUT OUT!!!!!!!! I want to move on. I will. If I just give Sam enough time. I GOT ONE LESS PROBLEM WITHOUT YA, GOT IT!??!?!?!?!?!?!

And to play us out.... THIS PERSON.

Peace out yo!

Sincerely,
-Katie