I am absolutely nothing around here.
Just something to belittle, judge, ignore, criticize, abandon because your own selfish fears. I'm worth so little. No one listens to me.
The only reason I hang on is for the taste of freedom I'll have so very very soon. A friend out of state might take me in, and if she doesn't, I can find a way to get by, make something of myself. I REFUSE to stay here and be made to believe I am nothing. I am NOT nothing. I AM A HUMAN BEING!!!
I have thoughts! Feelings! I am worth actually listening to! And not just hearing the words, but their true meaning!!! But no one here actually will! I only have one friend that knows everything, and listens to me. He is the only person who really sees me as a human. Everyone else just sees me sit there. The only place I am truly alive is in my writing.
There I am my complete self. No hiding, no judgement to be found, just me. All of me. Nothing is hidden. I hate that it's the only place I don't have to hide anything. Not my preferences, not my feelings, not the truth, nothing. AND THAT IS THE ONLY PLACE I CAN DO THAT.
I hate my life. I lean on Big Time Rush so much right now. Their music, photos and videos of them, everything. They help me through the week, until the weekend. I love my weekends. I get out of the house and get to be around people I don't have to hide in front of. I get a small sliver of hope, a drop of the taste of freedom. It helps some.
I WILL escape this oppression one day. I will NOT stay and be made to feel like shit. I WILL BE FREE.
-Katie
Just something to belittle, judge, ignore, criticize, abandon because your own selfish fears. I'm worth so little. No one listens to me.
The only reason I hang on is for the taste of freedom I'll have so very very soon. A friend out of state might take me in, and if she doesn't, I can find a way to get by, make something of myself. I REFUSE to stay here and be made to believe I am nothing. I am NOT nothing. I AM A HUMAN BEING!!!
I have thoughts! Feelings! I am worth actually listening to! And not just hearing the words, but their true meaning!!! But no one here actually will! I only have one friend that knows everything, and listens to me. He is the only person who really sees me as a human. Everyone else just sees me sit there. The only place I am truly alive is in my writing.
There I am my complete self. No hiding, no judgement to be found, just me. All of me. Nothing is hidden. I hate that it's the only place I don't have to hide anything. Not my preferences, not my feelings, not the truth, nothing. AND THAT IS THE ONLY PLACE I CAN DO THAT.
I hate my life. I lean on Big Time Rush so much right now. Their music, photos and videos of them, everything. They help me through the week, until the weekend. I love my weekends. I get out of the house and get to be around people I don't have to hide in front of. I get a small sliver of hope, a drop of the taste of freedom. It helps some.
I WILL escape this oppression one day. I will NOT stay and be made to feel like shit. I WILL BE FREE.
-Katie
No comments:
Post a Comment