Not creative whatsoever! :D

I was up until about three thirty.

So yeah, I really have nothing to post about, so please enjoy this random video playlist I have created: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dJz9GfUhu9s&list=PLB08F8B2B4742E3A2 I will try to do better tomorrow, okay? :)

Sorry guys!
-Katie

This is annoying! :D

Wanna take a guess at what time it is?

1:23. AM. WHYYYYYYY?????? Is it too much to ask for a little sleep???? Wait, what if.... No, it couldn't be that. Could it? URGGGGH!!!!

Why? I just want to sleep! Is it that bad of a thing to want?? Ugh. I also really want to write something.... But that is something I need to do on the computer, not my phone. -.- Well....

Night!
-Katie

IT IS HAPPENING THIRD ALBUM

GUYS IT'S HAPPENING

TRACKLIST ALBUM ART WHAT IS AIR OMG THIS IS REAL NOW ALL WE NEED IS THE ACTUAL RELEASE DATE OMG THIS IS REAL AND PREORDERS START TOMORROW I JUST CAN'T FEELS JUST ASDFFHFJKMIORW;GJLKCNJK;L FANGIRL IN OVERDRIVE I REPEAT FANGIRL IN OVERDRIVE REMAIN CALM I AM JUST SUPER INCREDIBLY UNEXPLAINABLY HAPPY RIGHT NOW FEELS FEELS JUST ASFFSDHD;LZDBVKH;/ OKAY????????


And now back to your regularly scheduled lives. XD JUST HAD TO DO THIS OKAY????? :D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D

-Katie

Ehm....

Ahehe...

Well I have good news and... well, I have stuff to talk about and I am going to start with I AM SUPPOSED TO BE ABLE TO UPGRADE MY PHONE TODAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

But would the damn phone company cooperate? NOOOOOOOO They have to be a bunch of asses who do not realize MY MODEL IS OBSOLETE AND I CAN'T DOWNLOAD ANYTHING OR UPGRADE THE SOFTWARE AND I NEED TO CHANGE MODELS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! But NOOOOOOOOOO. Even though I've had this thing for two years!!!!!!!!!!!! WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!

Okay, now I'm calm. Kind of. Well, let's distract me shall we? Hmmm..... Well, my grandma's sister is over! -_- She's not so bad, but the problem is the house isn't spotless so my grandmother is going to use it against us later or bitch about it to me or behind our backs. Like always. And I'm just over here like, "Yeah, it needs to be cleaned, but in the long run is that really the worst thing in the world??" I mean think of those people down in West! They don't even have a house to get messy! I mean seriously, think of that compared to a messy house here and tell me which is the bigger problem.

What else.... Well, to stop ranting, WE ARE THREE DAYS AWAY FROM BIG TIME THURSDAYS STARTING IF YOU DON'T COUNT TODAY!!!!!!!! :D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D Sorry. ^^ But it's true!!! I have it set up to record in the living room, I need to set it up to record in my grandparents room, and I need to set up the series to record, but yeah. I AM PUMPED IS YOU PUMPED AND THERE AREN'T SUPPOSED TO BE ANY BREAKS IT'S SUPPOSED TO GO STRAIGHT THROUGH TO THE END AND OMG I AM GONNA CRY DURING THE FINALE OMG SOOO SAD TO THINK ABOUT BUT IT HAS TO HAPPEN AND CAPS LOCK. Sorry. :P I tend to overuse capslock, lol. But seriously, thinking about it ending is like sooooo sad! I mean I know it has to happen, that it's necessary, and important for their careers, but it's still kinda hard. OKAY I AM MAKING MYSELF SAD THINK TOUR.

OMG tour. Does you realize I have the privelege, the HONOR, of meeting the guys this summer?!?! That I am one of the few lucky people who get to do this?!?! I just... wow. Okay, I feel the need to end this blog. Sooo... see you tomorrow? Course you will! YOU ARE STUCK WITH ME MUAHAHAHAHAHA! XD

I'll shut up now. :3
-Katie

Hmm

Okay, so I was GOING to post a rant about sexuality and equality.

BUT A: It had to do with an article I found and honestly, my faith goes against everything I would have written and B: I would probably get so much hate and praise at the same time. SO. I have decided I will wait and do that another day.

INSTEAD We are going to fangirl. Like always. XD YOU KNOW YOU LOVE IT!!!!!!!!!! Lol. SO THEY FINALLY AIRED THE EPISODE OF MARVIN MARVIN WITH BIG TIME RUSH LAST NIGHT AND IT WAS HILARIOUS!!! I have only put up with that show because I have been waiting for that episode. BUUUUT, It isn't half bad. Maybe. A lot of Green screen and slightly bad CG though....

AND THE BEST LINE: "I knew I should have come as a solo artist." - KENDALL SCHMIDT EVERYBODY!!!!! XD I love my Kendork do you love my Kendork I love my Kendork my Kendork is special and he is allllll mine!!!! :D:D:D:D:D:D:D Yeah, go watch it. IT WILL BLOW YOUR MIND!!!!! Especially those Cargan moments hehehehehehehehe.... ;D

BLOG OVER!!! :D
-Katie

Helloooooo :D

Okay I freakin love Saturdays!!! :)

Just putting that out there. :P I spoke words again when put in a group of people today! :D Slowly but surely. :) I think I can thank a certain person for the sudden confidence boost.

WHATEVS. :D I just thought I'd post my usual after-meeting post. And now to work on... SOMETHING! :D

-Katie

My fingers still hurt. :P

ALL FOR YOU MY FRIEND!!!!!! :D

Okay that made no sense and quite honestly... eh, I got nothing else to do for a few paragraphs, so why not elaborate? :)

OKAY. SO I CAN'T FOLLOW THROUGH ON ANYTHING AND I HATE MYSELF FOR IT. I can't follow through on being on time, I can make anything worth putting online to surprise my friend, AND I SURE AS HELL CAN'T FOLLOW THROUGH ON NOT BEING AWKWARD!!!!!!!!!! -__________- KIERSTEN YOU CAN BE POSITIVE I WILL GET YOU YOUR SURPRISE TODAY!!!!! I swear to god if I have to stay up all night to do it I will. You da best and you gon get it, promise!

AS FOR YOU (Not the person reading this but a person who doesn't even know that this exists :3 ): I promise you I'm coming. I feel awful when I can't be there and I'm sorry.Life just goes crazy over here and I can't get to you and it kills me because I want... I want to spend time with you. But life just gets in the way so much anymore. But you will have my undivided attention for an hour today, promise. :)

AND FOR THE REST OF THE PEOPLE READING THIS: Hi. :) THE GUYS ARE FILMING THE LAST EPISODE OF BIG TIME RUSH AND THEY'VE FINISHED ON THE SET AND THEY'RE JUST FILMING AT RANDOM PLACES AROUND HOLLYWOOD THIS WEEK AND WHEN THEY POST THE KEEK(S) THAT THEY ARE DONE FILMING I AM JUST GOING TO BREAK DOWN AND CRY OKAY I'VE BEEN THERE SINCE- Well not the very beginning- BUT PRETTY DAMN EARLY ON AND I'M JUST GONNA CRY HAPPY/SAD TEARS AND JUST ASDFGHJKLASRTKJLEGKL

Freak out over! :D NOW TO GO FIX THE OTHER TWO PROBLEMS I NEED TO SOLVE! :P
-Katie

Coffee gooooood

I'm not deleting my other post.

But I'm putting it back as a draft. I'm more calm now, and I really need to go pick a song and practice, but I need to update.

SO GUESS WHO GOT A TUMBLR LAST NIGHT?????? :D That's right, MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D:D:D:D:D:D My mom is so awesome. she changed her mind simply because of my inability to obtain new BTR pictures that had been released yesterday! :D Isn't she da best?? :P

I AM SO PROUD OF HER. I have turned her into a.... well I wouldn't say a FANGIRL, but essentially a fangirl. She doesn't obbsess as much as I do, or get feels like I do, but she enjoys socializing on twitter, and she's always there to help her sister Rushers, and she's just a Rusher in general. :) I STILL HAVE TO TEACH HER THINGS BUT YEAH SHE FANGIRLS!!!!! :D And quite honestly, I don't mind.

I see how lucky I am compared to the relationship other girls have with their moms, and see how lucky I am to have the one I do with my mom. :) Soooo...... yeah. :P IN OTHER NEWS: MORE BTR NEWS SOMETIME TODAY AND JUST ASDFGHJKL;';LWIUEROHNDFKJKL YOU KNOW HOW I GET WHEN MA BOYS DO STUFF :D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D So yeah. :3 OH!

And I ALSO plan to get a cover up tooodayyyy. ;) I'll post the link here when I get it up. It's more of a shout-out video for my twitter friends, since I've missed the last two Follow Fridays. And they mean so much to me, so I figured this would be something good to do to make up for it. :)

BUT SERIOUSLY I GOTTA GO WORK ON THAT KTHANXBAI!!! xD
-Katie

RANDOM DANCING!!!!!! :D

THOUGHT!

Ya know how the family of the Boston Marathon bombing suspects keep insisting that their kids are innocent? That makes me think two things are possibly happening. Thing 1: Those men were REALLY good at keeping secrets (Like me, but I'd never keep a secret like that). Or perhaps 2: They were in on it and are forced to play the "My kids are innocent!" Card. Just my thoughts here... I could be wrong on both accounts, but ya never know.....

IN OTHER NEWS!!!!!! I am slowly beginning to design the cake for my brother's birthday party! :D AAAAND I would like to say hello to someone very special who shall remain nameless, so HELLO PERSON WHO SHALL REMAIN NAMELESS! xD Very nice to have you with us!

DOES YOU HEAR DAT DEH MUSIC SAYS IT'S TIME FOR A FIVE SECOND DANCE PARTAY WOOOOOT!!!!!!! *Dances like an idiot for five seconds* Ah, doesn't everyone feel better? XDDDD Okay click here and watch like the intro and everything will make sense. And feel free to watch the rest! :D Okay seriously, CLICK ----> http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=j-VNJsdFwM4 hehehehehe, yeah, I just did that. xD

BACK TO..... VERY SPECIAL STUFF AND DAYDREAMING! :D Still my little secret, since my mom reads supposedly.... HAI MAMI I LOVE YOU MAMI KTHANXBAI!!!!! XD

I warned you I spaz. :3
-Katie

Deep thoughts to think about.

I got a paper cut and it huuuuuuuuuurts!!!! :((((((

And that has no relation to the title whatsoever!!! :D Lol you guys know you love me when I spaz. :P But seriously, MY HANDS HUUUURT. -.- Small price to pay, but it suuuuuuucks man!

My fingers are sore from playing guitar yesterday (AND MY STUPID INABILITY TO PLAY A B FREAKIN MINOR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!), and I somehow contracted a paper cut. O.o Don't ask, I just know it's there and my finger hurts.

But enough about me and my hands! :D LET'S TALK ABOUT STUPID STUFF THAT YOU PROBABLY DON'T CARE ABOUT BUT WILL STILL READ SINCE IT'S HERE AND YOU'RE READING THIS OKAY POINT. Time for a FLASHBAAAAACK!!!!! *plays weird flashback music*

Remember the other day when I was talking about that sing-along video that we all watched as a child (AND IF YOU DIDN'T YOU WERE ROBBED!! Oh, and click here if you do not remember! :D http://blessingind.blogspot.com/2013/04/childhood-memories-time-d.html ) A thought occured to me last night about part three: WHO THE HELL PUTS SOMETHING THAT FRIGHTENING IN A SING-ALONG VIDEO FOR SMALL CHILDREN LIKE SERIOUSLY WTF?????? Side note: The wolf in the song wanted to get on a ride with me and my dad when we went to Disney when I was like three or four, but I was so scared because I knew he was a bad guy, and I was scared. :P True story. xD

I mean what sick person had the idea to put it in there??? Just because a song was needed for the Haunted Mansion or something??? And if you don't feel like rereading the whole other post just click here: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZE7_fgRPwgI SCARY RIGHT???????

What else was there that I wanted to talk about? I know I'm missing something..... OH YEAH! Either I'm really misreading it or "Wake me up before you go-go" Mentions clubbing and drugs. O.o

And with that I shall end this crazy post! :D
-Katie

Overdue explanation of things.

I know how late this is.

And I sincerely apologize for that. Blame stuff. Actually don't blame it, because it's really good stuff that has been distracting me. :P

OKAY. So I am a Roman Catholic. Which means I am SUPPOSED to go to church every Sunday. But I don't. I know how bad that is, but again, stuff (See tags for a hint). SO. In an effort to avoid that stuff and to have an experience, I went with my grandparents to the city of West, where the factory blew up. They were having a special mass to honor the five Knights of Columbus that died trying to help. My grandfather is a Knight, and he's a part of the color guard, so he was a very special part, but I don't think I'm allowed to say anything more than that, so...

I knew it meant an early morning (Yet I was still up late, which was a really stupid decision, I'm aware), And it was even earlier for me because I was told by my mother not to wear jeans, which meant I had to get up and shave my legs (Y'all know I love to give you TMI ;P ). Yet apparently she changed her mind but didn't bother to tell me. -_- Oh well. I finished about the time I would have been getting up anyways, so no big deal. And I made coffee. 8D Coffee is goood, coffee is your frieeeeend. xD So yeah, then it was car time.

It was about a two hour drive, with much confusion at the end because of construction and blocked off roads, and the GPS thing was rather annoying. :P But despite all that, we still managed to be about an hour early. My grandfather finished getting dressed (He was already half-way done when we left :P), and we went in to the gym of the church. It was in a building that was separate from the main church. It was interesting to see how many had already shown up, and there were still so many more that had yet to come. The final count of all the men was 110. Think about that for a minute.

110 men from all over Texas came to honor five men they didn't even know, to show support to their brothers, to honor them. Someone they didn't even know, yet they took the time out of their day to show up, and to be there as good citizens. Does that not say something? It just kind of surprised me, because I didn't think so many cared.

Anyways, back to the story here. The previous mass had let out, so the wives all filed in to the church to take their seats. The church was already filled most of the way. Now that I think about it though, maybe that was where the people who couldn't stay in their homes were living. :/ It wouldn't surprise me, because that's just what the church does; even those of a different faith, they help. they take them in when they are in need, help them. It's what Christ taught us, and what we should do. It's just... It's just what good people do.

The Bishop of the Diocese of central Texas said the mass. Church really wasn't that different from at my home parish. Then again is any mass really that different in any church aside from their choir and books? It was a beautiful mass. The service was taped, and apparently me and my grandmother were taped and we were on the news later that night. :P Not that it's really relevant to the story here, but just thought I should put that out there.

The end of mass the people were informed that a few of them living in certain areas were going to be let back in to get their belongings, and how to do so. They were also informed how a ladies chickens were doing just fine, they were all okay, over at the humane society. :P They needed that, they needed a good laugh. It will help them to heal, to find the small things to smile about. Mass ended at about noon. We met my grandfather and helped him take his uniform off, and we left. We saw how some of the areas were blocked off, we passed a lot of businesses, organizations, charities that had been set up, there to help, provide basic necessities, provide anything those people needed.

What exactly did I take away from it all? ......I don't really know. I know how pathetic that sounds but I didn't know these people, and like always I was too damn shy to try and say anything. But I was shown how close everyone in that town was. How everyone knew someone and was there for them. I was shown what a COMMUNITY looks like. Something so many cities lack, even small suburbs. So... yeah. I don't know what I was trying to do here, but...

Yeah. Sorry it's heavy, but heavy stuff just has to happen sometimes, kay? I'll make everything more upbeat tomorrow. :)

-Katie

UPDATE UPDATE I LOVE TO UPDATE! :D

rrrrrrrrrrrrrrRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I am getting REALLY annoyed at my guitar!!!! Either I'm not playing it right or something is wrong with the strings! Or maybe it's just supposed to sound like it does. I DON'T KNOW I HAVEN'T PLAYED THIS THING I A REALLY LONG TIME OKAY???

Ugh. I know. Cover. Up. Youtube. I'M REALLY WORKING HARD GUYS OKAY???? Promise. Soon. Maybe not this week, maybe not next. But SOON. It just takes time to relearn a skill. Or to get back to the same level you were before you put it down for a while. Ask my fingers, they will atest to that. -.-

It kinda hurts to type at the moment. :/ BUT Y'ALL ARE WORTH IT OKAY??? You guys should feel so special. :) OH SNAP I FORGOT!!!! Ugh. Stupid, scatter-brained me. -.-

I'M WORKING ON THIS STUFF ALRIGHT???? I just feel bad cuz I say a lot of stuff that I am going to/need to do, but then I get distracted and BLEHHHHHHH. Alright. Focus. I have about thirty minutes to work on the stuff on here.

YOU CAN DO IT KATIE, YOU CAN DO IT!! YOU BEAT DEATH TWICE, GOT THE GUYS TO DO THE MACERENA, GOT OVER TWO THOUSAND VIEWS!! YOU CAN FOCUS AND GET IT DONE!!! xD Sorry, I pep talk. :P

TO THE STUFF! :D
-Katie

CHILDHOOD MEMORIES TIME!! :D

Did anyone else have the Disneyland sing-along video (Or VHS if that's what you called it) when they were a kid?

I did! :P It was awesome, I loved it. WHY am I bringing this up? Well.... watch Ariana Grande's last Keek. :P The song in it was part of a song on the VHS. :3

AND IF YOU DIDN'T YOU WERE ROBBED AS A CHILD!!!! xD So to give it to you, HERE! :D I'm so nice lol. :P Seriously though, WATCH.

Part 1: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wHwrNRIVP-o

Part 2: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KfCDuPQ4CvE

part 3: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZE7_fgRPwgI *WARNING: Part three contains a really spooky/creepy song that may frighten small children. Viewer discretion is advised! :)*


I LOVED ZIPPIDIE DOO DAH SONG!!!!!!! XD Idk why, I guess cuz it had my favorite ride, lol. :3 SO WHICH ONE WAS/IS YOUR FAVORITE??? I wanna see a comment telling me please! :) You don't even have to sign in! You can send them anonymously. :) Pwease, for me?

You can thank me later. ;D
-Katie

The cake blog! :D

I did not post yesterday! :O

Well, even I knew that. :P I went on a.... fieldtrip if you will, and I'm still working on how to detail it right. I'll have it up soon, promise. :)

NOW LET'S TALK ABOUT CAKE. :D I made zebra cake! :D It was chocolate and white cake inside and I iced it with Vanilla frosting. freakin hated it tho.....

Well, actually, looking at it now.... Maybe it wasn't so bad. It fell apart when I tried to take it out of the pan, but now... I dunno, compare that to this:

YOU tell me which is better. Sigh. Well, screw that. I have to make a cake for Patrick's party in May. I have time to improve. WHICH THEREFORE MEANS I HAVE TO HUNT DOWN ALL MY TIPS AND COUPLERS AND SIT AT MY PRACTICE BOARD EVERY SINGLE NIGHT. -.- But it'll be worth it, promise. ;)

IN OTHER NEWS! Umm..... yeah I can't tell you it! :P But TRUST ME, it is an amazing, wonderful, beautiful thing, and it's probably the best thing to happen to me since Thomas came along. ;) Sigh. Life is good, ya know? :3 OKAY ENOUGH HINTS. XD And this spazzy moment is over! :D

I PROMISE IF NOT TODAY TOMORROW ON THE FIELD TRIP AND THEN COVER BY FRIDAY K LOVES??? :)

Love you guys! :D
-Katie

SOMETHING I FORGOT!!!

I WENT IN TO AEROPOSTALE (That's how you spell it right? :P) AND THEY WERE PLAYING "IF I RULED THE WORLD" WHICH IS A BIG TIME RUSH SONG AND I LIKE TRIED SO HARD TO CONTROL MYSELF BUT I WAS FANGIRLING SO YEAH I WAS SO FREAKIN HAPPY WHEN THAT HAPPENED!!!!!!!!! :D:D:D:D:D:D:D

And that was fangirling with Katie! xD

-Katie

*Insert clever and attention grabbing title here*

Hmm...

Well, for once I have something to do besides spaz! :D

FIRST, MALL. I love the mall! :D Well, I hate the two here in Plano BUT the one in Frisco is like, THE BEST THING EVER. Because THOSE stores' largest size is an extra large, which is my size (DON'T FUCKING JUDGE ME I'M WORKING ON IT AND I ALREADY HATE MY BODY SO I AM DELETING ALL YOUR PATHETIC FAT COMMENTS GOT IT GOOD!), so for ONCE I got to ENJOY trying stuff on and finding out what I like and what looks good! :D IT HAS BEEN SO LONG SINCE I ACTUALLY GOT TO DO THAT.

Too Long actually. -.- WHATEVER HAPPY STUFF. Hm, what else...? WELL I AM AT THE LIBRARY LIKE I ALWAYS LOVE TO BE! :D Which therefore mean social time which therefore means HAPPY KATIE!!!!! :D OH!

MY BABY BROTHER IS NINE TODAY!!!! :') He is quite literally a miracle. His birth- well, he was an emergency delivery and we nearly lost both him AND my mom. BUT THEY ARE HERE AND ALIVE AND HE'S AN ANGEL AND HE'S NINE TODAY AND FEELS!!! :'D

AND- I need to stop capslocking everything. :P I get to go home and decorate his cake that I made! :D I'm thinking bright blue with slightly darker blue border and words. And YES, I am capable of doing that. I TOLD Y'ALL I AM AMAZING IN THE KITCHEN!!! ;D Expect pictures.

And THAT means I have half-way fufilled my promise I made when we reached 2,000 views. :D NOW TO GET THAT COVER UP ON YOUTUBE. :P

Soon guys, very soon. ......DANGIT I FORGOT WHAT ELSE I WAS GONNA SAY!

Wait I think I have a character max... Hope I didn't pass it! :P
-Katie

MAAAALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D

I'M GOING TO THE MAAAALL I'M GOING TO THE MAAALL xD

Well, yeah. I'M GOING TO THE MALL THIS MORNING!!!!!!!! :D Only catch? I'm going by myself. -.- #Foreveralone

OH!!!!! And and and and I finished my 1,000 piece puzzle last night after working on it for three days!!!!! :D #Foreveralone I keep using that huh? :P

OH WELL I DON'T EXACTLY CARE!!!!!!!!! :D:D:D:D:D AND I DIDN'T GO TO BED UNTIL ONE IN THE MORNING AND I GOT UP AT NINE IN THE MORNING SO I AM GOING TO BE A SLEEPY SPAZ ALL DAY ISN'T THAT FUN?????????? xD

Yeahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh PLEASE SHARE THIS MY VIEWS HAVE DROPPED. :(((( OH! And I made cake! :D Gonna decorate it this afternoon and then I will get the cover up by Wednesday! :D

TIME TO GET READY PEACE OUT HOME SKILLETS! xDxDxD

-Katie

ehhhhhh/Yaaaaaaaay! :P

I hate getting online at first.

Once I get to the address I want it's fine, but all the headlines on MSN...... They're kinda scary.

I scare easily, and it's pathetic, yes. But I can't help it! I think I kinda have a right to be after everything that has happened in- OH FORGET IT.

Happier things, happier things..... Well, IT'S FRIDAY!!!!!!!!!!!! :D THAT MEANS SOCIAL TIME AND THAT THE WEEKEND IS HERE!!!!  WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! xD Okay yeah. Y'all know I get to get out of the house on Friday nights for an hour to see my friends. And then I get to enjoy Saturday afternoons at the library like all the cool kids do! :P And then Sundays..... Either I enjoy and decide to go to Church and end up coming home miserable (I HATE LOVE TRIANGLES EVEN IF THEY DIED ABOUT THREE YEARS AGO!!!), Or I'm miserable all day and then Sunday evenings I get to enjoy some.... quality time with myself. :P AND THAT'S ALL I HAVE TO SAY ON THE MATTER YAY FOR NON-SENSE MAKING STATEMENTS! xD

I amuse myself sometimes. :3 So yeah, weekends ROCK! :D AAAAAAND.... Yeah that's all I got right now. :P

LETS ALL GO WATCH REBECCA BLACK SING FRIDAY! XD Yeah I'm crazy. :3
-Katie

Clarification

OKAY BEFORE ANYONE FREAKS OUT!!!!

Yes I live in Texas. BUT! I am about an hour and a half NORTH of the fertilizer plant that exploded! I live in a suburb of Dallas. ME AND MY FAMILY ARE OKAY!!!!! I'm so worried for those people down in West though (Yes, the city is literally called, "West.").

There are five fire fighters and one policeman that couldn't be found. Five to fifteen people are dead. There are over 160 injured. countless people without homes and clothes and houses now. I still have that picture of the burning house that they showed on TV last night......

It's scary to think about everything that's happened this week. The Boston Marathon was bombed. There were letters sent to a senator and to the president laced with Ricin (A deadly poison). A factory blew up and devastated an entire town. Thank God for Southern hospitality. The people of Waco (Neighboring city) have taken in all these people from West. Not into their homes but let them take refuge there.

And now I'm scared because... because my DAD works in a factory. Who's to say it won't happen to his plant?! Who's to say one night a fire will break out and I'll wake up in the morning to find out my father is dead!!!!!! I'M SCARED RIGHT NOW!!!!!

I know there are so many safety precautions in place but look at what happened last night!!! Look at all the shit that's gotten blown up this week!!! Why SHOULDN'T I be scared??? I know. I need to have faith in God to protect me. He always does. He saved me from the car wreck, I think it was devine intervention that made me stop when I tried to kill myself last year....

I'm just so worried for everyone right now. I'm worried for total strangers. Because I'm just that kind of person. A person who cares about people I don't even know or have never met. Would I have blown off my family one Sunday to keep a girl in Italy from commiting suicide if I didn't care? Would I be so willing to help and be a support for so many girls and a few guys on twitter if I didn't have my heart on my sleeve?

Sigh. I'm sorry I'm rambling. I got up at four thirty in the morning again because it was storming and I was scared and didn't want to go back to sleep. If you read all of this thank you. I just needed to get all of this out....

-Katie

OMFG OKAY?????

And the whale noises begin in three, two one.....

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cU1ViUbxTD8

MAY AND JUNE CANNOT FREAKIN COME FAST ENOUGH- Wait, maybe June could take a little time, because the beginning is going to fucking suck! Losing a best friend. :'( BUT THE END OF JUNE WILL BE AMAZING OKAY?????????? :D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D NEW ALBUM NEW SEASON MEETING MY BOYS JUST ASSDDGFGYJKKL

FEELS OKAY????????? :D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D Thank you Carlos for not keeping secrets about this stuff very well!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

-Katie

Really? *WARNING: EXTREMELY SAPPY*

I wake up to 21 pageviews.

DO YOU GUYS KNOW HOW AWESOME THAT MAKES ME FEEL?!?!?!?! :'D You guys are freakin amazing you read this babble about my daily life and put up with my fangirling and take this thing to new heights!!!

I'm getting all sentimental again but it's true! This blog would be nothing without you, the person reading this!!! All I do is write the stuff you're the ones who decide whether or not this thing flies or sinks. And I just... *Emotional cries* Hold on I gotta go put my food in the oven.

FIVE MINUTES LATER....

I'm back!!! :D Seriously though, just.... wow. THANK YOU. Especially if you've been here since the beginning, or if you've stuck around through my dark days. I don't care who you are or when you started reading. just THANK YOU. :')

OKAY ENOUGH SENTIMENTAL STUFF. Soooooo................... I got nothing. :P WELL WAIT. Carlos is in Hawaii so HAI CARLOS!!!! xD And James and Kendall are in New York (I'm betting Coachella or something :P), And Logan..... Well, Logan is being Logan I suppose. :P lol, poor Logan! All alone. :( Or mayhaps hanging with Dbelt.... xD I amuse myself when I think of this stuff.

AWESOME BLOG IS NOW OVER!!! :D

-Katie

UGHHHHHHHHHH

Okay what is this I don't even.

Wellllllllllllllll........ I realized I'm a but-kisser on here. I constantly try to defend myself and clarify to avoid hate. But honestly, A: No one ever comments and B: I have the power to delete any comment of my choosing!!!! >:D MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAH It's so fun to be the administrator. ;P

IN OTHER NEWS: ...........................Yeah I got nothing. :P Apparently James and Carlos like to Keek at the same time now so they put each other in their keeks and just.... Go watch for yourself. xD It's kinda cute. :3

AND ASDFFGGGHJLK;L MY MOM SAYS SOMEONE GOT A VIDEO OF THE NEW SONG UP ON YOUTUBE SO I AM OFF TO GO HUNT IT DOWN SO BAI GUISE!!!! :D

-Katie

Third post in one day.

Just so we're all clear from my earlier post...

Watch this just so you know: http://www.keek.com/!R7cJbab

Prayers go out to all those in Boston.
-Katie

The blowing up of things!!

What is with everything blowing up today?!?!

Okay so I just woke up from a nap (Don't judge I have been up since four this morning), and I see two keeks from James and Carlos BOTH about an explosion at Paramount Studios, there was just an explosion at the finish line at the Boston Marathon...

AND THEN THERE IS THE FACT THAT CARLOS JUST TOLD US EVERYTHING AND THAT THE NEW SEASON STARTS MAY 2, THE ALBUM IS FOR SURE CALLED 24/SEVEN AND THAT ONE OF THE SONGS IS CALLED CRAZY FOR YOU AND THE LIVE CHAT TODAY SO TWITTER IS GONNA BLOW UP AND JUST ASDFGHHJJKLKL

Sorry, just had to do that. :D BACK TO YOUR REGULARLY SCHEDULED LIVES.

-Katie

Wow

11 views before 8 AM?!

YOU GUYS ARE FREAKIN INCREDIBLE DID YOU KNOW THAT?!?!?! Yeah.... I IS A MORNING PERSON. xD

So I woke up at four thirty in the morning with no real reason. I'm weird. DON'T JUDGE ME!!! XD ANYWAYS, I've gotten- NEVERMIND I'M NOT JINXING THIS. Ugh. I'll probably sleep while I get my fillings done this morning. Wait, that means I won't be able to feel my mouth!!!! NOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!! D: I should probably go eat breakfast, that might make me SLIGHTLY less spazzy. AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA Yeah right! :P

Well, if I can't feel my mouth I can at least make THIS AWESOME ZEBRA CAKE FROM THE CAKE MIX I FOUND LAST NIGHT!!!! :D:D:D:D:D:D If I find my phone I WILL post pictures! :D OH! and that reminds me of one of the first posts I ever made! I believe I titled it, "Cake balls"? :/

Here's the link: http://blessingind.blogspot.com/2012/01/my-epic-cake-balls.html

ARE THEY NOT AWESOME?!?!?!?! :D I love baking. :P

SPAZ OUT!
-Katie

I had this dream/idea once.

It was a long time ago.

I was young (14 to be exact), naive, and refused to see the truth no matter how miserable I was. It involved a certain ass and a certain bitch, a really sweet guy I'm pretty sure I hurt in the process of a love triangle, my former best friend... Actually, just a bunch of people who I'm forced  to call my enemies now. We would all go to six flags one day, and I'd get so dehydrated, and the ass I mentioned would take me to a cooler corner, force water or soda into me, and we'd confess our feelings for each other. Then we'd enjoy the rest of the day together. I don't really remember more than that, but it's just something that just popped into my head.

I wonder if anyone would do that for me now? If someone would actually care enough about me to put me in the shade, cool me down, and make sure my sweaty icky body and mind were okay.. Because unbeknownst to the rest of the world, TEXAS SUMMERS ARE LIKE THE DEVIL'S PLAYGROUND WITH THE TEMPERATURE. I'm not kidding you the summer before last we almost broke a record for how many days went over 110 I think. It was freakin hell.

But more to the point, I like to daydream about people taking care of me. Actually caring about me. I have my mom sure, but she's kinda forced to I guess. I just want someone to do that for me. I guess one day someone might. Idk why I brought all this up, I just felt like sharing....

UPDATE ON COVER AND CUPCAKES: my brother turns 9 on Saturday. Therefore, THERE WILL BE CUPCAKES! :D As for the cover.... I'm out of practice. :/ Give me another week on that, okay?

AND THAT IS ALL! :D Enjoy the rest of your Sunday! I know I probably won't....
-Katie

PS: MY KENDORK IS SICK I AM SO SAD MY KENDALL IS SICK BAD UNIVERSE HE'S TO PRECIOUS TO BE SICK!!!

Um, okay then.

I'm so awkward....

ANYWAYS, Guess what? I ACTUALLY SAID WORDS WHEN PUT IN SOCIAL SITUATION TODAY!!!!!! :D:D:D:D I know that sounds bad, but if you knew me you would know I say like, ONE WORD, when with actual people. :/ I KNOW I'M PATHETIC DON'T JUDGE ME!!!! xD

IN OTHER NEWS.... Um, well, things with my brother... yeah. Just a big mess. I hate being at home anymore. HENCE WHY I STAY OUT AS LONG AS I CAN AND WHY I'M HERE CHILLIN AT THE LIBRARY LIKE ALL THE COOL KIDS DO YO!!!!! xD

I still wonder if Kendall saw that tweet and read this... LIKE IF YOU DID I LOVE YOU SO FREAKIN MUCH KENDALL THIS IS MY LIFE AND YOU JUST MADE IT TEN BILLION TIMES MORE AMAZING.

And if he didn't... Well, I'm just gonna pretend he did, alright?

GOOD JOB! xD

Blah.

Okay why can NOTHING ever stay happy for long?!

I should be bouncing off the walls. I have my guitar fixed. I have over 2,000 views on this baby. I'm pretty sure when I tweeted Kendall yesterday afternoon about it he at least looked at it (And I have no way to tell but oh well, I'm just going to pretend he did and smile about it. :). I just feel like I should generally be happy.

But NOOOO, I keep letting stupid little things ruin my mood! I shouldn't but I am! And it sucks man! Why? Why can't I just look on the bright side for ONCE?! LMAOOO Okay my dad is being goofy with my brother. Guess that's reason to smile. And I get social time tonight... It's the weekend. Friday and Saturday are the best days of my week. But then Sunday.... Sunday just sucks.

Either things go good and I go to church and become miserable, or I am miserable all day and avoid church and the whole day is just a mess. S I G H. Well... Social time Katie. Think of Social time. Think of the future. Think of your cupcake shirt you need to make for the concert. Think of the amazingness and socializing and being happy and making new friends that will happen.

And once again, Big Time Rush has made me smile. :D They never fail to do that. For me and for all their Rushers. Now for something that may or may not get seen; CARLOS I GET YOU TRYIN TO BE SNEAKY BUT WHAT DOES MAY 2 MEAN COME ON BOI WE NEED SOME ANSWERS!!!!!!!

And that concludes this random and spazzy blog. :D

-Katie

:O:O:O:O

WE REACHED OVER 2,000 FUCKING VIEWS GUYS!!!!!

DOES YOU KNOW HOW HAPPY I IS??????? :'D And I PROMISE I will do something this time! I was gonna make a cover and put it up on youtube, so HOPEFULLY I can do that today! :D AND THERE WILL BE A VIRTUAL CUPCAKE PARTY JUST GIMME A CHANCE TO MAKE SOME COOL CUPCAKES AND TAKE PICTURES ALRIGHT?????!?!?!?!?!?

THANK YOU SOSOSOSOSOSOSOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH I LOVE EVERY SINGLE ONE OF YOU!!!!!!!!! :'D

-Katie

Ugh.

I didn't do my homework.

I started to write my story, but then I realized how if I wrote anything other than a princess story where she gets kidnapped and finally sees the world (actually that might work, but again, one tiny detail would make it unreadable), I'd freak everyone out. And of COURSE I didn't read the book. -.-

The only reason I am going is because my mom is forcing me to be "social." Psh. Does she not realize I can never be myself around those girl ever again? That if they knew who I really was, all the cutting, depression, almost killing myself, and how strong ive become because of it, that they'd shun me? Freak out? Consider me the worst possible sinner? That if I let my true self show, that if I try to talk about anything I've overcome, that I will never be a true part of the group anymore?

I'm taking such a giant risk today by wearing short sleeves. But I'm done hiding. It's not like I intend to be a part of that group anymore after the year ends anyways. And the same with any group she puts me in. That I can't talk to or lean on any member, because they would freak out and run away. Like everyone always does.

The only people that truly understand are Rushers. Were it not for them, and their listening hearts, I would not be as strong as I am today. Why does my mom not see how much she is hurting me in her trying to help me? I can't let my true self shine, I can't lean on anyone, because if I try to talk about my problems and open up, no one will care, or be too scared of me.

But I always do it, fake a smile, pretend I enjoy it, just to please her so she doesn't make anything worse....

But I hate myself more and more each time I do it.
-Katie

Better wording

I'm sorry that last blog was so harsh.

I don't know how to deal with it all. This just brings it all back, and I hate when it comes back. I hate what happened, and what I had to change, do, and go through because of it.

So my question is this: if you are who I think you are, we are meeting at Starbucks tomorrow. You said you wanted to talk. Does that mean WE should be there a little earlier? Or stay later? I just want this done and out of the way.

You know how to leave a comment, so do it please.
-Katie

*singing* FUUUCK MYYY LIIIIIFE.

Yes, it once again time for one of THOSE blogs.

The ones we all know drove her away. Her. That little.... thing that ruined me just as bad as a certain trombone player did. Sigh.

I have to face it all tomorrow. And to be perfectly honest, I just want to fucking scream when I'm with that group. Scream how much she hurt me, how I do cut and that I don't feel safe because no one will understand and cut me off because of the cuts on my arms. All I want to do is run when I'm with them.

But like always, I'll sit in the corner, pretending I care. Pretending I'm happy to be there, that I'm cold so I don't have to take off my jacket so no one sees who I really am. Nothing but being someone I'm not for two whole fucking hours. -.- I expect to be pushed over the edge tomorrow. But I am not going to give in without some sort of fight. I just don't want to deal with it. I'm so much happier WITHOUT that group. Without being forced to- Oh crap I forgot I had homework I was supposed to do that at the moment I can't access! FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ugh. Rant over. Maybe. I don't care if you were the one who left the comment, or if you read this. You deserve the truth, unlike what I got.

-Katie

I need to get out more..

Sundays are just not my day.

They used to be my favorite day of the week, but now it seems like the universe saves everything that could go wrong for Sundays.

And I'm beginning to think I care too much. Like there's only so much I can do, and sometimes I just need to accept that I need to just not butt in or get involved. -.- Yeah I dunno.

I need more people time in my life, otherwise I am going to be the forty-year-old who spends all her time on social media living in her parents basement. -___- sigh...

-Katie

This is what's up :P

Bad title, I'm very aware. :P

ANYWAYS, I'm sick, and on my period. So I am just a barrel of fun! -_- Whatever. I really have nothing- OH WAIT YEAH I DO!

I found the photo yesterday from when I met Nick Jonas. GUESS WHAT!?!?!?!?! I still hate it with a burning passion. -_- I know how lucky I am to have that photo, and I had no way of knowing it would look like it did, but I still can't stand to look at it. BUT, looking back on that experience, I can be better prepared for what will happen when I meet BTR. I know now how to better prepare, what I should try and wear, make-up... And I have to pull from that. ALSO: Nick Jonas wears make-up. I am going to be in so much trouble for that. xD But it will never show in the picture, because the camera shoots straight through it. :P

I really need to stop before I say anything else that I'll probably end up regretting later, so bye. :)

-Katie

OH. MY. GOD.

It's happening.

This is real. This is ACTUALLY GOING TO HAPPEN!!!!!!!!!!!!! I AM MEETING BIG TIME RUSH THIS SUMMER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! DO YOU HEAR THAT IT IS ME SCREAMING BECAUSE LIFE IS AMAZING AND THIS IS ACTUALLY REALITY AND ASFKJLGSKLDGHKLLKL

Sorry. I JUST HAD TO DO THAT!!!!!!!!!!!! :D:D:D:D:D:D:D This means my dream will come true. That means I get to meet them, hug them. BUT THAT ALSO MEANS I NEED TO START WORKING OUT AND GETTING MY SKIN ALL PRETTY BECAUSE CAMERAS ARE EVIL THINGS.

Also: GO BUY POM POMS BY THE JONAS BROTHERS. Yes, I am a part of that fandom. No, I am not ashamed of it. Yes, they are slowly becoming more relevant. So do it.

AND I AM NOT TALKING ABOUT ANYTHING ELSE THAT HAS HAPPENED TODAY BECAUSE MY ANXIETY IS BAD ENOUGH AND MY DAMN TICK IS BACK SO JUST NO OKAY?

And that is all! :D EXPECT AMAZINGNESS FROM NOW ON.

-Katie

BIG. TIME. RUSH.

TIME TO FANGIRL AGAIN!!!! :D

You know you love it. :P OKAY SO FIRST IDK IF I WROTE ABOUT IT YET BUT TOUR. TOUR SOON. LIKE MID-JUNE KIND OF SOON. Which means ALBUM REALLY SOON. Which means NEW SEASON EVEN SOONER!!!!!!!!!! :D:D:D:D:D:D

ANDDDDD.... Wait for it... I MAY POSSIBLY BE GETTING VIP THIS YEAR!!!!!! :D:D:D:D:D:D Does you know what that means???? THAT MEANS SOUNDCHECK. And the best part of VIP? YOU GET MEET AND GREET. That would be a dream come true. All I have wanted since my suicidal days ended was to meet them, hug them, and tell them thank you. That's all I want. That's my dream. And if it comes true my life will be complete, okay?

BUT..... It may not happen. We're trying to figure it out, but it may not happen. I'd be happy with whatever I got. I know my dream will come true one day. But I will wait if I have to. And if VIP doesn't happen, we will get resale tickets. THAT IS HOW I ENDED UP SO CLOSE TO THE STAGE LAST TIME.

And they were only fifty bucks for both! :D So I HIGHLY recommend resale. Just be careful which site you use, because some are inflated price-wise, And others are kinda sketchy. But still, worth the risk. So yeah, TOOOUUUURRRR!!!!!!!! :D:D:D:D:D:D:D OH!

And my mom got fan club access last night. I LOVE HER OKAY????? That means I will get a presale code on Wednesday. And we have VIP info now. I don't remember if it had the prices listed, but we have details! :) Hmm. what else was there......

Umm.... OH! HARLEM SHAKE! :D http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PH0l2h5quQM THAT HAPPENED THIS MORNING. EVERYONE ON TWITTER WAS FREAKING OUT!!!! :D Sooo..... Umm..... Carlos also got a cat on Saturday. xD I think we're at the end of the list. :P So yeah, just take this allll in. Because this is what makes me happy. and what makes my world spin. :)

UNTIL NEXT TIME, GO KILL SOME ANTS.
-Katie