Yes, it once again time for one of THOSE blogs.
The ones we all know drove her away. Her. That little.... thing that ruined me just as bad as a certain trombone player did. Sigh.
I have to face it all tomorrow. And to be perfectly honest, I just want to fucking scream when I'm with that group. Scream how much she hurt me, how I do cut and that I don't feel safe because no one will understand and cut me off because of the cuts on my arms. All I want to do is run when I'm with them.
But like always, I'll sit in the corner, pretending I care. Pretending I'm happy to be there, that I'm cold so I don't have to take off my jacket so no one sees who I really am. Nothing but being someone I'm not for two whole fucking hours. -.- I expect to be pushed over the edge tomorrow. But I am not going to give in without some sort of fight. I just don't want to deal with it. I'm so much happier WITHOUT that group. Without being forced to- Oh crap I forgot I had homework I was supposed to do that at the moment I can't access! FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Ugh. Rant over. Maybe. I don't care if you were the one who left the comment, or if you read this. You deserve the truth, unlike what I got.
-Katie
The ones we all know drove her away. Her. That little.... thing that ruined me just as bad as a certain trombone player did. Sigh.
I have to face it all tomorrow. And to be perfectly honest, I just want to fucking scream when I'm with that group. Scream how much she hurt me, how I do cut and that I don't feel safe because no one will understand and cut me off because of the cuts on my arms. All I want to do is run when I'm with them.
But like always, I'll sit in the corner, pretending I care. Pretending I'm happy to be there, that I'm cold so I don't have to take off my jacket so no one sees who I really am. Nothing but being someone I'm not for two whole fucking hours. -.- I expect to be pushed over the edge tomorrow. But I am not going to give in without some sort of fight. I just don't want to deal with it. I'm so much happier WITHOUT that group. Without being forced to- Oh crap I forgot I had homework I was supposed to do that at the moment I can't access! FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Ugh. Rant over. Maybe. I don't care if you were the one who left the comment, or if you read this. You deserve the truth, unlike what I got.
-Katie
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