THIS IS NOT SUPPOSED TO BE HAPPENING!!!!!!!!
Big Time Rush is supposed to run through the summer and be awesome and I'm supposed to have them to console me when my best friend leaves!!!!!!!!!!!!!! BUT THERE ARE ONLY TEN EPISODES LEFT BEFORE IT ENDS FOREVER?!?!?!?!?!?!?! D':
Today sucked already but now I just want that person to hold me while I cry and stuff my face with ice cream and watch a movie. I feel like I did when I finally got it that he didn't want me, that it would never happen. I feel....... I feel numb.
And I hate that feeling, because it means at some point in the near or far future it will all pour out of me and everything will fall apart again. And it's not just the TV show. It's everything around me too. About the only thing I have that's stable is You. You're my rock in this mess. My light house in this dark ocean. my hope in this crazy mess I call my life.
And I mean after the TV show ends, and the album comes out and the tour is over, what then? It's like when the Jonas Brothers kind of "took a break" last time. They got back together, but look how long it took them. I just don't know what to do with myself now.
And everything is falling apart in the real world again too. -.- I have to go....
-Katie
Big Time Rush is supposed to run through the summer and be awesome and I'm supposed to have them to console me when my best friend leaves!!!!!!!!!!!!!! BUT THERE ARE ONLY TEN EPISODES LEFT BEFORE IT ENDS FOREVER?!?!?!?!?!?!?! D':
Today sucked already but now I just want that person to hold me while I cry and stuff my face with ice cream and watch a movie. I feel like I did when I finally got it that he didn't want me, that it would never happen. I feel....... I feel numb.
And I hate that feeling, because it means at some point in the near or far future it will all pour out of me and everything will fall apart again. And it's not just the TV show. It's everything around me too. About the only thing I have that's stable is You. You're my rock in this mess. My light house in this dark ocean. my hope in this crazy mess I call my life.
And I mean after the TV show ends, and the album comes out and the tour is over, what then? It's like when the Jonas Brothers kind of "took a break" last time. They got back together, but look how long it took them. I just don't know what to do with myself now.
And everything is falling apart in the real world again too. -.- I have to go....
-Katie
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